if you come back .......

Today..is yet another boring day..tmr is maths paper..not v scared..cos i kinda good at maths!!..hee=p..almost all of us are busy studying for e coming exams..i min..they are alreadi here..every1 concentrating..while me..hee..using com..at e same time..e two esthers n limin n siti n few more pple busy organising e two-nite stay at chalet at pasir ris..i beg my mum lyk hell..den she let me stay for one nite..but nvm le..at least gt someone pei wo..hee..siti oso can stay for one nite only..but betta den nothing ma..i hope we can enjoy..though is meant to involve everyone in cls..but of cos some pple cant go lo..i hope everyone dun b so spoilsport..can make it..e more e merrier ma..hee..but iya..tats nt easy la..some pple heck care heck care one..haiz..i dun care le..even my gan jie kai xin goin on e bbq nite oso!!..hee..guess we gonna hv a great time..reli hope so.

Recently..juz had an argument with some pple..but now no prob le.. hee..i know i was at fault oso..but i apologised..n i felt betta..iya.. gonna b in e same cls for two yrs..cannot dun tok de ma..so i took e initiative lo..but anw i m always taking e initiative de la..LoL..

Arg!!!..'guilty' tat song v nice..so siok~..hee..blue's new album gonna come out soon!!!..so happy..hee..but sure no money to buy le..mum always dun let me buy albums..but i know siti will buy..den i can borrow from her..cos she sure lend me de..hee..oh ya..still gt twin effects haven return her..hee..haven even watch yet..i so lag de..bleahx..

Haiz..mayb moving house soon..if able to rent e house to jinyi..den dun nid to move to woodlands..den dun nid to shift skol le..wah..lyk tat den suang lo..can stay in my skol..with all my frenz..or acquaintances..n all e nice seniors..n all my best beloved godbro n godsis..most imptly..ctss got many shuai ge!!!..hee..din regret choosing tis skol..so lucky..but most of them graduating next yr.. heh..*cough*..bleahx..

Muz go n study le..hope can pass all sub..or mayb dun retain or drop to na can le..but tat minz eng muz pass..but my eng juz sux la..hope can pass lo..or mum sure kill me le..god bless me..LoL..but of cos geog muz pass oso..wed gt sci..din do last qn..thu gt lit..din hv time to complete oso..haiz..fri gt geog..worse..din do so many qns..last time three goeg common tests..failed twice..finally passed e last one..hope in EOY exams miracles will happen..though miracles dun always happen..haiz..i shall b back after exams..LoL..


d u n c a n y o u a r e m y e v e r y t h i n g !!..

Hee..so siok..bro din take out e internet cable last nite..so can use for a while le..hee..

Haiz..today math..guess is cos i A BIT too confident le..so din study much..den today a bit stuck in lotsa qns le..hope i can gt above 85 le..but actuali i tink math is systematic ma..so din take pride in it..but guess is wrong le..muz study e formula..n watsoeva..haiz..but seems lyk is too late to say tis now..hope can do better e next time..

Tmr eng..beginning of tis yr i did rather well..but second semester onwards my results dropped..mayb..din always speak eng ba.. hee..but hope tmr's paper is an easy one..esp e summary..everytime sabo me..e summary make me cant complete e paper.. comprehension oso..god bless me le..muz pass..or i die le..sure kena killed by parents..den cant go chalet..cant go cls gathering..cant go shopping..cant go out play..arg!!..i betta pass all..hope so le..

Haiz..juz now i read siti's online journal..tink tat was entry was rather long alreadi..sep de..now den i noe so many so not suang with me..LoL..mayb..perhaps..guess so..actually so many pple hv bin saying i v petty..xcept pple lyk yingpeng..lyn..jiahui..zirui..zhuang wei..yinghao..n mayb few more..cant rmb all at e moment..i oso dunno y..last time in pri skol i wasnt lyk tat..i was nv lyk tat..i swear i hv always bin quite nice..quite generous..i reali wasnt lyk tat..mayb is stress tat caused me to be lyk tat now..or is it cos..e game tat ended btwin me n him..??..haiz..it gives me bad memories again..i..i guess i nv lyk him b4..but yet..i..seem to miss him a lot..mayb in e firx place..we were only wasting time..i regretted starting e game in e firx place..though it was nt me who took e initiative..i shud hv rejected..y did i accept it..i reli had bin dumb..now..only living in misery..i hope i can get over it soon..n i noe i can..most impt is to study..i suppoz so ba..

But..on e 23rd nov..mdm fong gonna retire frm nhps..so deres a farewell dinner for her..mrs kee rang me up few day ago to ask me if i m interested..but..muz gt another 9 pple b4 she can gt one table for me..cos one table muz accommodate 10 pple..but 60bucks!!!..so many say v ex..so nt interested..my bro shentong oso so spoilsport.. dun wan go..shaun tat so-called good fren oso dun wan support me..n to tink i invited his old flame suzanna for his sake..gee.. bleahx..feel lyk calling senior val n fengrui..but guess they oso not interested lo..some more fengrui oso dun nid pay for sure le..his mum is chinese HOD..n my fav chinese teacher!!..LoL..now only i can go..yujia can go..shermin can go..no one else..haiz..yujia keep telling me to persuade him to go..but eva since e game btwin us ended..i nv wan to face him again..dunno y..but juz feel lyk erasing him from my mind..dun wan to c him..but several times i deleted his contact from my hp..but i still added him back..dunno y..perhaps i m "stupidly" tinking tat e game can b salvaged..well..i hope nt..reli hope not.. dunno y again..but guess i dun wan waste time again..or mayb save sms..??..LoL..dun even wan to b frenz with him..but my frenz hv bin giving me advice tat can still b frenz..so i oso dun bother at e moment..anw i guess i dun hv e time to organix cls gathering le..so besides next yr's new yr or teacher's day..i wont gt to c him much le..n by e time i c him next yr..i shud hv long forgotten tat he actually existed..

Somtimes i tell myself..mayb shouldnt b so emotional..life is meant to b enjoyed..lyk wat i told siti all e time..i will try to stay cool n happy always..!!..though i m nt cool at all..hee..i will keep smiling..always stay cheerful..i will..i can do it..!!..hee..hope he will nv c my journal entries..i noe from now on..my life's gonna b cOoL without him..oPpS..??..is kinda late..muz study for eng le..lucky phrasal verbs only..hm..fri go chalet le..hope i will nv b left out..hope many pple will go..hope is fun..looking forward to tat day..


d d d u u u n n n r r r o o o c c c k k k s s s DUNCAN ROCKS!!..

Today we had our english paper 2..though it din seem to b as tough as wat ms koo had said..but nt tat easy either..but anw..i only hope can pass..though i reli din study much last nite..hee..dunno y..today kinda happy..mayb cos i hate eng..den since is over i v happy lo.. bleahx..

After e paper..me..shirley..siti..yiwen..jiemin..huimin..n tat two esthers went to a nearby food centre to eat..strange..whereva we go always c jinyi..he's lyk a ghost..bleahx..anw..everyone sat..xcept siti n yiwen..cos one table nt enough seats..hee..den i watch jiemin huimin esther ng esther soh n shirley eat..at e same boasting bout DUNCAN!!!!...hee..n siti yiwen stand behind shirley listen to songs.. den after they hv eaten..cos me n siti n yiwen haven eat yet..so we went to mac to c wat to buy for BREAKFAST..den we saw amirah yingpeng yinghao zhuang wei n zirui..den siti they all went home whereas i stayed with yingpeng they all..finally..get to eat something..i waited until eleven den bought a double mac spicy..n yingpeng bought a large fries and we shared..n down dere we were talking cock..blah blah blah blah blah blah blah...den finally went home le...

I keep listening to GUILTY by blue!!!...over r n over again..heh..cos reli darn nice..e album due on 3 nov..cant wait for tat day..den can borrow from siti le..!!!...hahahahaha...listening to jay's songs oso.. qingtian n dong feng po v nice..dad just told me he fancied a semi-d at toh tuck..which is near yuyuan's houz..he was quite satisfied with tat houz n cost..so we shud b moving dere soon..dunno still wan to rent to jinyi notz..but i doubt he wan it..he sure lazy to take a 10-min bus de..heh..but i move dere le..who knows..??..mayb i become yuyuan's neighbour!!..gee..hope so ba..

Tmr is chinese paper..though my chinese has always bin quite good.. but yiwen is a strong opponent..nv seem to win her b4..haha..but she's a nice opponent though..i dun win her..but lose to her without regrets..heh..m i sounding too serious??..hope not..gee..muz go study le..so many words..haiz..LoL..den thu gt home econs..after tat last paper we shall scream!!!!...LoL..finally come to end of all e papers..den lyn they all mayb go to my houz den we go playground play..heh..siok siok siok~!..two more days..i shall endure.. hee..kkz..muz study le..den muz slp early le..hee..cos chinese papers i nv fail to doze off..heh..Zzz..


d u n c a n r a w k z !!!

Lucky just now chinese paper din doze off..but answers for compre were rather short..so..guess i wont do any better again le..din hv time to study everything..heh..anw..tat grp of peeps of us..me..lyn.. yingpeng..zhuangwei..yinghao n zirui..we went to e playground near my houz again..den after tat go my houz.."study" home econs..LoL.. apparently we tis type of pple wont study de lo..gee..we watch mtv n listen to songs..den when we were watching e mtv of jian dan ai by jay..jay keep hugging tat girl..tat shirlyn n me v e nt suang siarh.. of cos lo..jay no taste de..bleahx..nt reli..yingpeng keep saying tat e girl quite chio..so we just hafta agree lo..heh..den of cos got watch BLUE's mtv oso..heh..of cos muz watch la..or i will die de..heh..

den my dad and my bro and i went to view e new houz at toh tuck after they hv left..i din noe tat houz so near yuyuan's houz!!..heh.. next time can go his houz play siarh..den yingpeng oso moving to tat area!!..den three of us can go to skol tog n go home tog le..siok siok siok siarh!!..LoL..some more e houz quite big..hope can invite frenz during housewarming..heh..but mum sure dun allow de..hee..cos dere wud b lotsa pple le..of cos lo..i gt 4 siblings siarh..if everyone invites some frenz..e houz wud b darn crowded with unfamiliar pple.. heh..lets c when e days gt nearer ba..ha...

Cant go chalet le..mother not happy..i dun feel lyk going..n something cropped up..but nvm lo..dunno y in e beginning dying to go..but now..dun feel lyk going le..esther say if i dun go a lot of pple dun go le..reli meh??..y i dun realiz de..i blif if i dun go jiahui dun go oso lo..but nt to e xtent tat lotsa pple wont go rite??..i gt so power de ah?..heh..anw..hope they enjoy lo..betta take more fotos..i lyk to look at fotos le..heh..

Hm..tmr home econs..heck la..lazy to study..time to enjoy le!!..heh.. tmr they going to e dunno wat jurong entertainment centre to ice-skate..but i dunno how to ice-skate..n nt interested..so not going.. some more they invited christopher n those gang..i guess i not gonna lyk it..n jinyi yiwen coming to my houz..hv to entertain them.. bleahx..

Haiz..so long still cant find mtv for guilty!!!..i m dying!!..who can help me find lehx??..i reli cant stand it le..i will go mad..but jiemin called me to ci ji me siarh..she say she watched e mtv le..she say duncan become more shuai le..which was a miracle tat she wud say tat..but she dun say..i oso know duncan become more shuai le lo..heh.. haiz..but cant find e fastest way to dl tat mtv lehx..shaun e software got prob..cant help me..jade i so long nv c her..dunno how to find chance to ask her..i hv been going to yahoo search engine lotsa times..but to no avail only..oh ya hor..tmr esther giving me blue's poster siarh!!!..cant wait to go to skol tmr......to c tat poster..hee..

Hum..i wonder i wonder i wonder..strange..today no one sms me lehx..firx time lyk tat..yesterday sms shang peng but until now he still din reply..recently tis godbro of mine sudd not close to me le..i hope everything can b just lyk e past..[and lyk i used to b unknown to kok hui..n lsp n i always sms]..but ever since they got n level..i dun wan to disturb him..so din sms him..but after his n level..he oso keep ignoring me..last nite sms him twice he take me as dun exist de..tis is e firx time he din reply my msg..i always tink he's e one who nv ignore me..my best bro ever..but now..i dunno who to rely on le..anw..hope is i over sensitive den he will reply asap..hope so ba..

Haiz..trying imesh now..to dl my mtv..hope can find n can work..sudd just feel so vexed le..tmr muz scream le..last sub to take..ha..my hp.. now still blank..still only tat foot..my screensaver..no change..i juz nid one msg n i will contented..mayb for my tat so called v nice bro ba.. got jie oso..is kai xin..but she seldom sms me..cos edison chen more impt to her den i m..LoL..joking le..i nearer to her lehx..she cant fly to taiwan to look for him ma..heh..

Wanna study home econs now..losing hope..in life..suddenly..dunno y..but still..i know..life is meant to b enjoyed!!..i shall enjoy as much while i still can..i will keep smiling de woa;o)..heh..cos i know..my life rawks..with DUNCAN's existance!!..heh..bleahx..


d d d u u u n n n c c c a a a n n n r r r o o o x x x

finally!!..exams are over..finally can relac le..heh..juz now everyone so excited..when ms koo was collecting e last script..almost everyone screamed!!..haha..of cos muz b happy ma..is a joyous occasion..heh..

today esther giv me e blue poster!!..though duncan e hair a bit changed..but still v nice..gee..still love him as much..hahaha..but behind gt 5566 de..4 of e members..so many pple wan tat poster oso but i dun bear to giv it away..heh..but in e end..i rmb senior shu yi lyk 5566..so still decided to giv her lo..upon e tot tat i hv so many posters at home..hee..

just now yiwen bee teng and jinyi came to my house..siok~..haha.. jinyi come to discuss with my dad e renting of house thingy..den yiwen come with him..den bee teng come with her..hee..but we reach my house v early..at bout 9 only..haha..den we step into my house..they saw my bro den they addressed him as UNCLE!!.. hahahaha..my bro turned away and laughed non-stop..hahaha..but anw..we went into e com room..where i m in now..to play com..kinda sian..cos in e morn..dunno wat to do..and at e same time waiting for my father to come back to cook breakfast lo..cos hadnt eaten for e whole morn..lol..den after tat we tok to some pple on msn lo..so strange de..i signed in with my acc..but everyone started a conver with me with "JINYI!!!"..lyk he v shuai lyk tat..bleahx..my father come back le den he cooked e mee rebus..poor jinyi..listen to my father tok non-stop..but can only advise him to take care..he just kept smiling.. hahaha..den after tat my mum n dad wan to go out le..so we .... played playstation..!!..hee..jinyi n yiwen play ps2..den we dun disturb them..heh..so me and beeteng went to play ps..tat wat chokobu racing de..press until my thumb so pain siarh..after bee teng lost to me..she oso darn sian den dun wan play le..haha..so i asked yiwen to play with me..den jinyi of cos oso stop lo..hahaha.. den everyone only played tat game..hahaha..den after tat my dad wan to bring us to view e new house..so we all jump into e car den set off le..heh..den c for a while le we strolled round e area to c e darn siok houses..we keep going "wah wah wah~" in e car..haha.. den after tat we went to yuyuan's house to get a drink..yiwen's idea..not mine..heh..yuyuan v clever..saw us from e window den quickly open e door..we tot he got supersonic eyes siarh..hahaha..

den after tat we went back home again..play again!!..heh..den play play play le..yiwen tat cousin wan jinyi to go to her skol..dunno y..beats me..but anw..all left..n i use com lo..ha..haiz..so little pple going to chalet le..including me..something cropped up..no choice.. hafta obey my dad..but i dun mind anw..hm..initially already agreed to bring ps for them to play le..now cant go le..of cos i feel bad wat.. they tink i lyk to change my mind so much meh..but i dun care whether i angry or nt..i hv no say in tis matter..so if they not gonna listen or blif my excuse..not my business..anw..hope they enjoy..

anw..later still muz bring yujia to my house..she so ma fan one..iya!!..she sms me le..muz go and take her le...tat dumbo...LoL...


l o v e d u n c a n !

just now in e evening..went to nan hua pri to meet yujia..den we walk to e playground..play..tok..tok cock though..but ah..too many mosquito le..so went to e provision shop to buy snacks and drinks.. den continue toking cock..toking bout e 'game' i once played..haiz.. she only reminds me of sad memories..but i dun mind tat much..cos she's my best fren for four yrs le..i dun mind wateva she ask..anw..at least she understands how i feel..haiz..

dunno y..after yiwen bee teng and jinyi left..i felt so down..dunno y..reli dunno y..but anw..after yujia has left..i TINK siti and many other pple are angry with me for changing my mind again of not going to e chalet..they muz hv hated me for tat..but anw..since tat is so..i bet we all gonna hv a cold war in cls again..so..so-called to 'play safe'..heh..i quickly watched e twin effects siti lent me..just afraid tat dere might not b a chance for me to borrow from her again lo..so rather watch now..i watched with my sisters..kinda interesting..and i realiz tat afterall..edison chen oso not tat bad-looking lo..quite cute ba..haha..kai xin will tease me if she knows i said tat..cos i used to say in front of her tat edison not good-looking..haha..so i really know now..tat we can say things too early..you nv know wats gonna happen..hahahaha...

haiz..when e movie was bout to end..jiemin gave me a call..she asked if i going to chalet..but i hafta tell her i not going..partly cos i hv lost interest in going with them..dunno wat to say..haiz..guess wat i say is useless..my words are gone with e wind..anw..after asking if i going to chalet..she asked me if i knew bout e argument they had when they went ice-skating in e afternoon..i wasnt interested to know..so i told her i dun care..and hung up...

i rang up jiahui..she told me..she said when they were in mac at jurong east..zirui said he dun wan to go to take neoprints with jiahui those pple..simply cos dere were no other guys..zirui felt kinda left out..den jiemin keep persuading zirui to go ice-skating with her tat group of pple..i guess zirui's sort of reluctant..so according to wat i know..jiemin smacked zirui several times..well..guess he shud b used to tat..jiemin's always so violent..but den..yingpeng..most committed person in e cls..ran out of mac..and started crying..cant blame her.. she muz b feeling unworthy for zirui..keep being hit by jiemin.. yingpeng's e only one who can influence pple to b good lyk her..lolz.. spare a tot for pple's feelings..but i just cant stand jiemin's behaviour..how can she keep beating bout e bush to criticize jiahui?!..she's totally crude n mad!..reali cant stand her..but she juz dun wan to do any soul-searching..i cant do anything den..let her b..anw..i can only say..our cls will nv b united..with sarcastic pple.. with attitude prob..haiz..wateva..

i hope yingpeng's feeling alrite already..i asked lyn..she said yingpeng shud b feeling better..hope so..tmr..i guess everyone wud b giving one another cold shoulder already..luckily tmr is a short day..dismissed at ten..tmr getting back a few papers..i cant say i m nervous..cos i dunno y i dun feel so..mayb i hv already prepared for e worst..and lyk wat shuyi told me..wats done is done..cannot b undone..so i can only hope i hv done fairly good..

haiz..today isnt quite a good day too..hope tmr is a better one..going to mac with e same group of pple again..but tis time without zirui and zhuang wei..muz b a bit strange le..cos is always tat group of us..sudd two pple missing..we will sure miss their jokes..haha..gotta slp rite now..wonder how tat group of pple will treat me tmr..pretend nothing happened?..or give me cold shoulder..still thinking tat i m narrow-minded??..haiz..wateva..Zzz...


d un c an^

humph..yest was a lousy lousy lousy..sway sway sway day siarh..firx is results no good..structured writing failed..cos wrote out of point.. haiz..no use saying so much now..cant make any changes to it le.. anw..hopefully can pass e total..or muz retain le..

after skol i went to mac with lyn yingpeng and jiahui..so sway..just stepped in only den saw tat leo yi shaun and le roy..sway sway sway~..but anyway..i covered my face with lyn's book..dunno y..den they so lame de..bought a hash brown den went to skol le.. wateva..not my business..

strange..e weather was still v nice de..den sudd rained cats and dogs..but by e time lyn went home le..she v safe lo..jiahui went to take mrt home le as well..me and yingpeng went to e coffee shop opposite our skol..but on our way dere..e wind too strong so my umbrella was blown away den we were all drenched..we wanted to run to a shelter but went wrong side..den so dumb go and step into a big puddle..our shoes..just as wet as us..really darn sway siarh..as if we juz bathed..

den me and yingpeng each drank a cup of hot milo..cos we were kinda cold..we tried to wait for rain to become a drizzle..after 2 hours..e rain was really not so heavy le..we were bout to go to e bus stop..den i saw shuyi..i gave her e 5566 poster den she was so happy..haha..but anw..yingpeng and i went to take 173 bus..so scary..i saw tat qian xiang..lucky he din c me..den so sway again..i was suppoz to stop in front of nanhua..but when i pressed e stop button e bus uncle did not stop e bus..so i went all e way to toh tuck..at my new houz..n i rang up my dad to pick me up..den he oso went to view e new houz..but anw..yest really v sway..

today my mum still xpect me to attend tuition lessons!!..no need ba.. exams over le lehx..i finally can relac siarh..y tuition??..heck..i not gonna attend anw..heh..today jinyi confirm with me le..he renting my houz..heng siarh..dun need move to woodlands le..heh..but still can move to big houz..siok siok sioK~.. gonna b neighbours with yujia and yingpeng and yuyuan soon..hee..ay?..strange..just realiz something..their names all "Y" de..hahaha..

today play until so mad..keep sticking my eyes to e tv while playing ps2..heh..but tat was after my 4hours of "short" nap..today so sian..exams over le den nothing to do le..hee..oh yah hor..still got e girl guides proficieny thingy muz complete soon..tue may go to jiahui's houz..den we can do tog..oso can go westmall..my fav place!!..gee..and yingpeng beeteng zhuang wei yinghao zirui they all may go oso..den we can enjoy b4 going back to skol on wed!!..hee.. but i wud rather stay in skol longer since exams are over..cos skol gonna end soon..cant play with frenz in skol le..cant c shuai ge..bleahx..*ahem*..i min cant c seniors le..hm..heh..

muz go and play ps le..otherwise my weekend wud become meaningless..hee...


duncan!!.. y are you married?!!??!?!.. LoLx =p
JaNiNe ... dOiNkZ

Just bathed..after coming back home from jiahui's house..yingpeng and i went to her house to do "project"..jiahui and i supposed to do e guides thingy..den jiahui and yingpeng supposed to do e chinese project..i went to clementi interchange den jiahui picked me up..den we took mrt to bukit batok..siok siarh..stopped in front of westmall.. my fav place..heh..den we waited for yingpeng at e interchange.. while i ate my peanut wafer..heh..finally she came le..she just cut her hair..v cute..really v cute..hahaha..

den jiahui led us to her house..and we stepped into her house..jiahui pulled me to her room..i wondered y..den she passed me a marker.. actually she wanted me to sign on yingpeng's bdae prezzie..gee.. den i signed lo..and we passed to yingpeng..she was kinda touched tat she hugged both of us..hahaha..she opened it..it was a tweety bird soft toy..really v cute..but kinda ex..lol..i must take a few days to return jiahui..haha..i wonder wat i will get for bdae next yr..heh.. kinda bhb la i know..dun even know if anyone rmbs my bdae..lol..

after doing lotsa things..i almost fell asleep..just felt v sleepy..heh.. den jiahui let me use com..den i v naughty lo..hack into shirley and huimin's acc..lol..and even changed their pw for a while..heh..but in e end i still changed back..and shirley was so angry and mad..she even signed up for a new acc..when she talked to me..telling me tat her acc has been hacked..i owned up lo..i've always been honest=p.. heh..she was kinda angry..and even typed out my full name.. wateva..if she's angry i cant do anything..if tmr she's not gonna talk to me or wateva..i oso dun hv any comments..lol..

den jiahui's mother prepared lunch for us..it was a sumptuous one..heh..of cos lo..i so greedy de..hahaha..den we went to westmall..hoping to purchase some scrapbooks from e popular bookshop..but we couldnt find nice ones..so we left..den went to arcard..heh..i watched both of them play car racing..kinda siok.. haha..den we walk around..den zhuang wei called yingpeng..asked if we are interested to go to arcard to play tmr..but they say jiemin going..so we werent v interested..but anw..none of my business..i shouldnt b going..

den jiahui brought me back to clementi..my father picked me up le..so tired..my back v pain..cant sit upright le..arh!!..must watch holland v le...


duncan shuai shuai shuai siarh!!!!!....

phew~..lucky siarh..yest so happy..ms koo said all of us will b promoted to sec2 express cos all of us passed eng..really darn lucky seh..din expect i could pass..hm..i passed all sub as well..but today got back geog..still din manage to pass..but ms wu has been trying to b v lenient in her marking scheme le..so i hv only myself to blame.. for not working hard enough..hm..mayb try harder next time lo..

yest after skol ate lunch in canteen..shawn wanted to pass me e lemon barley drink as instructed by jiemin..but dunno wat he did den he almost spilled my bowl of noodles..my shirt was kinda stained by den..he was considered lucky tat i was in a good mood..or he wud hv been dead by now..bleahx=p..hm..den after lunch we went to jp..but i was in a rush..and not v interested to stay dere as well..so i went home soon with weisheng and yingpeng..

today so tired..e deepavali and hari raya concert kinda lame and sian..except for anand tat part la..all e screamings and watsoeva.. heh..but i really almost fell asleep..and almost dehydrated..so thirsty siarh..

just now after skol just walked here walked dere..said hi to medwin.. but actually is wan to say hi to junhong de..my tat UG camp leader.. but i c him i tremble siarh..heh..so dun dare to even go near him lo.. haiz..wateva..already told medwin to help me..he better do wat i told him to..hee..

so tired le..gotta take a nap rite now..lol..only a short entry today..Zzz.....


duncan^

hm..second entry again..for today..now is 11.21pm..dunno wat to do..looking forward to tmr morn 11.30am..wanna watch party in e park..heh..just received hock chuan's msg in e afternoon..he said he know who i m le..he said cos he realised someone kept looking at him..den he tink shud b me..geez..but i've no idea if tat person he's thinking is really me..heh..i asked if tat person whom he tot shud b me ugly notz..if yes den shud b me..den he asked me y i always say i ugly..heh..i told him tis is a fact tat cant b changed..i told him i m not as optimistic as lyn..heh=p..but he said "hey..come on..surely you arent tat bad??"..heh..he really brightened up my day..he's darn cute!!!!!!!!!..geez..

busy watching tv now..since dere isnt anything for me to do..ha.. oh..tis sat got guides siarh..sian..dunno wanna go notz..kai xin said she dun wan go..actually i oso dun wan go..iya..c firx lo..cant always skip meetings oso ma..and oso if i dun go jiahui will kill me..heh..

today actually wanna say hi to junhong after skol..but dun dare..so told medwin to say on my behalf..geez..well..i guess he sure din do tat..always lyk tat de..humph..lol..morn oso actually wanted to say hi to hock chuan..but he too cute..i c him i quickly turned my face to bee teng and kept laughing..i just couldnt stop saying hock chuan is darn cute!!!!..but shirley they all keep saying i got a unique taste..heh.. but i trust my own taste=p..he really v cute wat..one of those rare cute guys i've ever met..heh..glad to know him...

oh gosh..kinda late..gotta slp..so got energy to watch my lao gong on tv tmr morn..opPs?..heh..Zzz..

duncan duncan duncan ^

today is anni and shu hui's birthday..sms both of them to wish them happy bdae..shu hui din reply..but anni was so happy tat i remembered..and even said wanna give me a kiss on my cheek.. hahaha..soo long nv c them le..kinda miss them..in fact..miss almost everyone in nhps..hope i can find time to organix another class gathering so tat we can meet up..

Morning --» got up early in e morning..cos got guides..met jiahui at e mrt interchange..i saw jingying..haha..long time nv c her le..though she's my neighbour..heh=X..anw..today's guides..kinda boring..but better den those song sessions..i hate singing sessions in guides.. cos we dun get to sing jay or blue's songs..geez..we learnt to tie knots..special supervisors..kaili..queenie..shu yi..madeline.. geraldine..huiling..shereen..and cant rmb who else la..they taught us how to tie e diff knots on e diff stands..jiahui and i had a hard time.. heh..struggling away..anw..we still passed..which means we'd hv another proficiency badge..geez..kaili gave me and other few pple a test on e flag etiquette and national symbol..i got all correct..geez.. tat means passed another clause le..heh..but she said i still cannot pass bronze..haiz..wat to do??..continue to endure lo..today's guides ended rather early..

Afternoon --» i met yanhong and bervyn for lunch..they so dumb de.. made me wait for them for 2 hours..consider them lucky tat i was so patient..lolz..anw..we went to kfc and bervyn treated us..cos he was e latest to arrive..heh..wat a small world!..we met bj..tsu hui..yu ci.. esther ng..wendy..and forgot who's e last person..geez..den i talked to them for rather long..a small world indeed!!..i met ms loo lee fen!.. heh..waved to her..den after eating..walked home with esther ng..i walked her to e bus stop and she took bus 154..den after tat i walked home le..at home le..but really darn sian..totally nothing to do.. anw..keep watching tv..simply nothing else to do..besides calling up frenz to chat on e line??..lolz..awaiting yiwen's arrival to my house in e evening as well..she's coming to my house for dinner with her mum and brother and cousins..well..my parents wan me to invite them over so they can sort of know one another..since i'm soo on "good terms" with yiwen..lolz..

Evening --» yiwen came with her brother and cousins and mum le.. brought me a big box of snacks..and two bottles of great fruit wine.. which really contained alcohol..which means i cant drink at all..lolz.. they sat and kept chatting..nope..i mean yiwen's mother and my parents..well..adults are lyk tat..esp new acquaintances ah?..talk non-stop..geez..wat m i talking bout??..heh..anw..her cousins and brother were kinda quiet..or is it just on e surface??..haha..dunno.. they seldom talk..haha..finally..dinnertime..still talking non-stop at e dining table..hahaha..yiwen's mother said they were lyk in a restaurant..geez..really?..perhaps..haha..

At night --» yiwen's bro and cousins played e ps..yiwen and i got into e computer room to play com lo..while e adults..still talking lo..after tat..got tired of e com le..geez..den we called medwin..kinda lame though..we asked him how he has been..real lame hah?..lolz..he keep saying i v bhb..which means buei hiao bai..means no limitations and v thick-skinned lo..ya la..i know tat la..we talked cock for a while and asked a few stupid qns den ... guess it was almost time for them to go home..my father fetched them home in our car..while i followed..e car wasnt tat big to accomodate all of us so yiwen sat on my lap..i was almost paralysed!!!..cos she was so darn heavy!!.. lolz..we had quite a nice time today though..hahaha..

hm..really tired by now..siti sms me..she got some probs..she isnt happy..feeling kinda down..hv to b e counsellor again..heh..

duncan_ai_wo =p

today..initially was v happy..cos finally finished all those guide logbooks instructed by kaili..submitted everything le..really feel a sense of satisfaction..everything was fine..really v nice and okie..until....

last period was chinese..luan lao shi was playing e video of our cls drama..i was sitting right at e back..totally looking sian..almost dozing off soon..Zzz..when ms koo suddenly stepped into e cls and requested to c some pple..no need to say..everyone oso know is e psi nite thingy..everyone muz b praying hard..hoping tat they wont kena..inclusive of me as well of cos..however..heaven wasnt on my side..ms koo din call me out..but she passed e dumb form to hui min and wan her to hand it to me..i really couldnt control..e moment i received tis empty surprise..my tears rolled down my cheeks uncontrollably..yiwen jiahui tsu hui and kinmun were consoling me away with tissue papers..but i couldnt help ignoring them..i appreciate their concern but i was really gonna explode..how i wish it was only a dream..at least hoping for a miracle to happen..but it was to no avail..i had to accept e fact..i joked of committing suicide and my frenz were so worried tat i wud mean wat i say..i'm glad tat they cared for me..at least i felt kinda comforted..

after school dismissal..i managed to keep calm a little..trying to face up to reality..but yet thinking of e consequences of telling my parents my teacher wans to c them..wateva it is..i went to mac with huiling limin and kinmun..den bought some food and went back to school..

back to school..i was cheered up already..we saw hock chuan..all of them were trying like mad to make me say hi to him..well..he's my ouxiang..really darn cute..but i wanted to keep a low profile..din wan to spoil my IMAGE in his impression..so dun wanna say hi..but he seemed to know who i m le..all cos of them la..hiyo..keep shouting my name..making it so obvious..siao~..lolz..but i still love them as much la..hahaha..

we helped luan lao shi with e school newsletter..before going home..kinda interesting..would hv missed tat if i went home early..anw..i told my dad bout e psi thingy..he said nothing much..but obviously he was angry..haven told mum yet..dunno wat to say..haiz..but dad would sure tell her..so anw..just be ready to kena scolding..wateva...

hm..gotta sleep le..too worried for everything..still got guides profiency to be completed..cant slack anymore..haiz..Zzz...

feeling a bit happier today..though my parents lectured me a little.. but since wats done is done..den dun wanna brood over it le..lolz.. kinda bo liao currently..so let me do some self-intro to kill time..geez..

name : guolian a.k.a guo^
nick : *ahem* .. mrs dmj ??..geez..kinda bhb la..bleahx..
tel/hp : ********/******** [almost all my frenz wud know..heh..]
address : [anyone gonna visit me??..]
date of Birth : 12 january 1990 [big hint!!..geez..]
zodiac : snake
horoscope : capricorn
hobbies : eh..talk cock??..play hp??..lolz..
cca : ... guides ...
email : guolian3@hotmail.com
fav food : mac..kfc..long john silver..mum n dad's cooking..lotsa stuff..
fav drinks : coca cola..sprite..100plus..milo..water..fresh milk..
fav bands : blue!..esp duncan!..geez..s.h.e..energy..a1..bsb..
fav singers : jay!..elva..cant tink of any rite now..duncan considered?
fav songs : almost all blue's songs..almost all jay's songs..
fav phrase : zhen shi de..tao yan..ren jia hai xiu ma..[geez...]
recent one : hock chuan v cute! zhou chuan xiong! [heh]
fav colour : yellow..blue..
fav number : 3 [lucky number=)]..18..100..
ouxiangs!!..
cool society » hock chuan!!..val..shuyi..jiaxin..junhong..fengrui.. shereen..kaixin..xue lin..melissa..limei..suling..vivian..georgia.. baoyue..zoe..sheen..lyn..ke xian..shentong..yinglin..suzanna..kaili.. qiu yi..jane liew..
cute pple » hock chuan!!..shuyi??..medwin??..kaixin..esther ng and soh..siti..yingpeng..lyn..tsu hui..kin mun??..zhuang wei..yinghao..bee teng..ernie..shawn..salih..limin..kexian..jiahui..baoyue..limei..qianwen. jinyan..melissa heng..sheena..vivian..zoe..yinglin..suzanna..soonzai.. weijian..michelle..tingying..yujia..yuyuan..
shuai ge » no one at e moment..din notice any..still DUNCAN only..
chio bu » yingpeng..lyn..elaine..limin..yingshi..kaixin..yiwen..limei.. jiaxin..shuyi..yingfen..shereen..kaili..qiu yi..xuelin..pei yi..yuying.. suzanna..yinglin..shermin..
funny pple » shawn!..medwin??..shuyi..kaixin..yujia?..

"family" list..
ah bu [mother] : wei sheng..lolz..
papa : jeremy..ben..
jie : kaixin..
sworn sis : e one n only ke xian..geez..
gor : medwin..lsp..shentong..jinyi..
meiz : xiaowei..lyn..siti..mic..esther soh..yingpeng..jiahui..angeline.. fed..fuyu..kuek..yanru..
little bro : soonzai..weijian..junhong..yuyuan..bJ..shawn..zi rui..
godsons : yanhong..zhen ning..zhuang wei..

nice seniors [some quite nice only..] » kaixin..shuyi..val..leroy..jiaxin..junhong..jiahui's bro..medwin.. yingfen..madeline.. shereen..kaili..qiuyi..queenie..limei..baoyue.. melissa..georgia..zoe..geraldine..minghui..qianwen..jinyi..hock chuan! christopher..kok hui..cedric..lsp..xue lin..mei qing..liyi..suling..vivian.. candi..christine..meili..kok chye..qian xiang??..bleahx..

frenz
v best -- mic..tingying..yujia..xiaowei..yixuan..shu..yingpeng..jiahui.. lyn..zhuang wei..zirui..yinghao..angeline.. tsu hui..bee teng..yiwen.. kin mun..kianwee..kaixin..lsp..soonzai..weijian..
best -- shuhui..chenyaan..shaun quek..suzanna..kuek..yinglin.. shermin..jane liew..lydia..ruiyi..yanru..serhui..weixin..shibin..zhen ning..yanhong..bervyn..samuel..furball..bq..fuyu..sheralyn..jade..felicia ng..anni..josh..junhong..ben..jeremy..yin cheong..johannes..hao xun..shentong..weisheng..malcolm..siti..esther soh..esther ng..bj..hui min..shirley..zhiwei..shawn..ernie..max..yuci..salih..shahrul..huiting..amirah..anand..huiling..felicia sun..tiffany..yuyuan..jiemin..ke xian..
good -- pei yi..ke xin..kiat chong..melissa..rongguo??..jinyan.. shirleen..qianwen..jinyi..medwin..shuyi..val..junhong..jiahui's bro.. kaili..kok hui??..cedric??..haiz..yiling..yujie..suhui..weining..weiyi.. charmaine..nicole..huishan..wenrui..ruth..jas..hopemi..fed..tiantong.. huijun..huiting..wxy..kaimun..xf..yingsheng..elgin..zhongyang..alfred.. kat..roujun..alex..
normal -- pple whom i seldom talk to lo...

heh..kinda long-winded rite??..geez..wateva..as i said..just feeling kinda bo liao..anw..today esther used her mms fone to take some pics..quite nice..except tat when i'm inside..geez..lolz..muz do guides le..haiz..sianz..Zzz...

haiz..tonight dad's supposed to go down to my school to c ms koo..i guess i'm really darn sway to kena tat dumb psi..if only i had worked harder..but i really worked hard for tis semester..but wateva i say is not gonna make any changes to e definite facts..heck..wateva..just hope later ms koo wont "pick on me" too much or i really tink i cant survive to attend guides meeting tmr..hope my parents dun scold me..god bless me....

morning -- i prepared an advanced bdae prezzie for limin..cos in e hols we might not b able to hand it over to her..n partly cos i dun tink i can make it for her bdae party..or in e firx place i haven been invited yet..so..iya..heck..anw..it was a soft toy kangaroo..$18 plus i guess.. couldnt rmb e exact price..i included jiahui yingpeng tsu hui bee teng zirui zhuang wei and yinghao's name in e card..she was kinda amazed..perhaps she din expect we would give her e prezzie so early..it has been a few weeks in advance i guess..lolz..anything.. anw i hope she likes it..when we got back to cls..mrs chen came into our cls to distribute e cert for math olympia competition..well..i wasnt so clever afterall..so i only gotten a participation one..haiz..some sort of disappointed actually..anw after tat mrs chen brought us to e lab to watch a film..cartoon in fact..kinda lame but interesting..yingpeng zirui and i kept laughing..after tat was p.e..captain's ball time..SOME PPLE sudd din wan to continue with e game n sat at one side.. complaining tat they din get e ball..well..i was really fed up..they din try to achieve e things they wan..n yet sitting down dere to complaining..is their own fault!!..as if e whole world owe them something or wat!..tat was still okie..jiahui n i were too lazy to bother bout those lame n bo liao things when yingpeng told us to ask them join in e game..fat hope!..i dun min tat yingpeng said e wrong thing..but i meant tat dere isnt any need for us to do so..too bad if they cant get e ball..their own business..well if they are not in e game..they wud only b at e losing end..we will hv more players.. humph..i din really bother bout tat frankly speaking..but i just couldnt accept wat siti has said!..she said i "took" all e boys n pulled them to our group!..tat was y my group was starting to lead..wat rubbish is tat?!..since when did i do tat?..i was so fed up..when shawn told siti to relac n he asked which side he shud be in..i shouted at him.."if you wanna join their team..den go ahead!..i'm not gonna stop you!..i dun care!"..well i dun min to really b harsh at him..was feeling kinda bad for speaking so loud as well..if actually anyone was convinced.. but e boys volunteered to join our team..i din make any comment..i was really not satisfied with today's game..last day of school..but..tis cls still turned out to b e same..hopeless..totally beyond hope.. wateva..but i din min to b mad at siti as well..just feeling irritated at times..anw our cls always has arguments..no big diff..

after recess -- ms wu was kinda bz..so let us watch e wateva cats n dogs film..i dun really find it nice..too exaggerating..was bz talking to beeteng and kin mun at firx..den helping jiahui to defeat angeline in chinese chess..though i dun really know how to play as well..lolz..i'm just a lousy player..heh..but nice game indeed..after tat was spring cleaning..really hated it..hv to move everything outside..so bek cek.. means fed up or something la..heh..i played with angeline chinese chess outside e classroom..but in e end seemed like it was yiwen playing with shawn or kianwee playing with zirui..cos they kept helping us..lolz..indirectly implying tat we r dumb..or lousy ba..

afternoon -- lunch time!..finally..dun feel like eating in school..so went out of e school with jiahui kianwee zirui yinghao n zhuang wei.. wah..kianwee was really a glutton..bleahx..he ate a plate of rice in school n now tat we r outside..he borrowed $2 from me to buy another plate of noodles..lucky he's in ncc..tough training..he wont hv a chance to get fat ba..lolz..so sway again..tat leo yi shaun n leroy n tat bunch of pple were sitting directly behind me..i really felt so stressful when i was eating my bowl of noodles!..hiyo..lucky we finished our food fast n went back to school to look for lyn huiling and yingpeng..apparently yingpeng wasnt looking good..partly cos today was e last day of school ba..n another reason was tat she shud b changing school soon ba..she tried to do a survey and hoping tat someone would wan to take up art stream like her..but dunno y.. no one just seemed to b interested..she was disappointed..tat was y she wan to take e entrance test to opt for nhss..simply cos they hv e art stream..she cried..she dunno if she shud opt for it..but she tink tat dere isnt any point for her to stay in tis school..cos our frenz are all ignorant..or mayb not all..but lotsa frenz v ignorant..talk without sparing a tot for pple's feelings..diff types of bad pple..wateva..she hugged me for a v long time..really a long one..i hope she felt comforted..but before tat she really lost much tears..cheer up yingpeng..we shall respect your decision..you may miss us..but just choose wat you tink may b useful to you in future..dun hv to b emotional..frenz.....mayb...placed at e second place ba..future career wud b impt..on our way out of e school..guess she was afraid of entering nhss..she was so sad..she hugged every pillar we passed by..n she hugged me again..i hv no comments..just hoping tat she would feel comforted..wateva it is..we shall miss her even she's really gonna leave us..n i shall always meet her since we would b living quite close to each other..

now..e time..is..5.33pm..approximately 3 more hours to go..before my father is to meet ms koo..i hope i din perform tat bad in school.. hoping tmr is a better day..hoping i would enjoy at e guides meeting..haiz..

oh well..just came back from school for psi two hours ago..kinda relieved now..though my mum still lectured me..but at least..one parent lecturing me is better den both..lolz..anw..safe for e time being le..when i reached school..i saw my sec2 guide senior meili..i saw tat dancy..tat sean from 2a1..n e christopher..gosh..so pai sehz siarh!!..anw..i lowered my head and walked to e direction of my clsroom block..den i saw kianwee and his mother..kaoz..his face so long and black siarh..looking at his face..i got nervous and was so scared tat............oh well..den i saw weisheng..he was pacing here and dere..guess he was nervous lyk me too..hahaha..jiemin and her dad were in e clsroom talking to mr steven tan..jiemin dun look good..shouldnt be a good sign le..lolz..anw..ms koo finally came down..she talked to my father first..in mandarin of cos..though her chinese wasnt tat good..geez..but my father commented tat her chinese was quite good..haha..i was expecting ms koo to point out all my bad points or watsoever to my father when she appeared to be smiling??..and..miraculously..she said i had to work harder for my geog..and i had been a good girl in cls..well..in her cls only..i wasnt tat good in any other teacher's lessons..geez..and she said when she marked my scripts in cls..she realised my eng standard are higher den some of my other clsmates..har har har..wat a joke!!..i nv tot i was so great before..lolz..anw..quite heng tat i was lectured by my father..but when i rang up my mother..she din give much reaction except tat she was a little worked up when she knew i was 32 in cls position..she nagged at me a little..which i tink i deserved..and told me to better work harder..well i know tat of cos..i will..i will try..

just now in e evening jinyi moved his things to my house..i was surprised at e person whom he brought along!!..he was elaine's bf!!..gosh..really couldnt expect tat..i got a big shock..lolz..hm..hv to do guides le..tmr must hand in..tmr one-day camp siarh..hope it would turn out fine like wat shuyi has said..and hope it wont be tat boring and quite fun!..lolz..heh..