if you come back .......

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.

currently chatting online with lyn hock chuan shaun. currently watching mtv of qing tian. quite sad. currently feeling. n o t h i n g.

today. maybe. just yet another boring day. besides watching tv. still watching tv. now should b attending a wedding dinner with my mum. but dun felt like going. so din go. stayed at home. morn woke up kinda late. cos last nite played hp till v late den slp. 11am watched 'my fair princess' till 1pm. den finally had lunch. ate two bowls of noodles cos din had breakfast in e morn. today is older sis' birthday. haven wished her yet. lolz. currently watching mtv of zui hou de zhan yi. currently feeling. b o r e d.

afternoon. too bo liao. kept switching channels. until my sis got e remote control and switched to an indian prog. it was kinda interesting. bloody at e same time. my sis said it seemed like e final destination. wateva. from 1pm. we watched till 3.30 i tink. not too sure. cos halfway thru i dozed off on e bed. lolz. after tat watched kindred spirit. din seem to rest at all. keep watching tv progs. sms esther to ask her lend me fantasy cd. cos hock chuan lent to pui yoke or dunno who. den esther said i like him. siao~. she said no matter how i explain. she wont believe. lolz. i give up. no comments. currently watching mtv of guilty. currently feeling. v e x e d.

evening. planned to go westmall. asked hock chuan. he agreed. just bout to ask him to ask christopher and yoke hwee. but he couldnt make it. he going to chalet with christopher. ha. called kai xin. but she going to school tmr. asked ke xian. tat sworn sister. hiyo. go until sian le. going elsewhere. so in e end. should be going with lyn jiahui yingpeng tsu hui and dunno zirui yinghao cant make it notz. oh yeah tis sat going to bukit timah hill on a hike. hope gonna b fun. called limin to ask if she wan to go to westmall with us. she not going. not free i guess. she told me bout her bdae party. is at west coast park. she said she invited hock chuan and christopher and e rest. and den. said i like him again. second person of e day. wateva. no comments. currently listening to cun zai. currently feeling. g l o o m y.

now. staring at e com screen. lyn seemed to be busy. so i din talk to her. hock chuan. talk halfway like no answer. so also din talk to him. red general just signed in. but dun feel like talking to him. esther and bj also signed in le. just called jiahui few min ago. told her e time to meet at westmall. again. same words. said i like him again. still no comments. dunno wat to say. i only said he cute mahx. does tat explain or mean anything? to me. it doesnt. lolz. wateva. heck. currently watching mtv of san nian er ban. kinda sad as well. nice song anw. currently. feeling. b l a n k.

all of a sudden. i felt so left out. dunno y. just cant explain. but not in a bad mood though. but just cannot explain my mixed feelings. i seem to hv something in mind. i dunno wat. i cant voice out. i find it hard to do so. i dunno wat to say. he's online now. he just spoke to me. but only two sentences. wateva. i dun give it a damn. he's but nothing to me now. y should i care. currently talking to siti. she got some probs. i m e counsellor again. i dun mind to be one though. lolz. cant laugh at e moment. dun hv e strength to even grin. currently watching mtv of ni ting de dao. quite sad. brings down my mood as well. lolz. currently. feeling. s p e e c h l e s s.

today. just went to westmall with sis. or probably not with her i min. i went with jiahui. she went with her fren elewhere. just stepped into westmall den saw lotsa pple crowding in e middle. i tot it was kinda lame actually. lolz. anw i went up on e escalator to e library and looked down. so it was actually kym ng and adrian pang shooting a channel u prog. lolz. i prefer sharon au=p. heh=x. anw. jiahui and i shopped around. intending to buy a farewell prezzie for yingpeng. but of cos we dun wish to buy at all. rather wan her to stay with us in ctss. hope so bahz. den so zun. saw meili and christine and an unknown sec2 guy from our school. dunno his name lahz. den after tat we went to popular. cos i wanted to buy some foolscap pads. so zun again. met jiaxin and tat girl. i tink shud b pearlyn bahz. so scary siarh. jiahui almost banged into her. den she laughed. guess she oso din expect to c us dere. lolz.

we continued to shop around. den went into e library to talk at a side. too bo liaoz. lolz. at e same time. lyn was sms-ing me. telling me bout prog on fri. dunno can go notz lorz. hope so bahz. but they going with zhou chuan xiong they all. i pai sehz siarh. lolz=x. den after a while. i picked up my fone. "1 missed call". opPs? someone called me? anw i pressed and saw tat it was my mum. i called her back. but forgetting tat using fone isnt allowed in e library. i went a quiet corner of e library. wat e f**k manz. =x. tat stupid librarian yelled at me. even if i was in e wrong. she can just say nicely to me mahz. tell me to just put down e fone. but her attitude was totally atrocious! "tis is a library! you're not supposed to use e fone here! you better put down e fone now or scram!!!" damn her man. she spoke in chinese though. but anw was darn rude. i really felt lyk giving her two tight slaps and tell her to f**k off manz. so bitchy for wat? iya. wateva. i blif her attitude will get her to nowhere one lahz. she will soon b complained of lousy service and get lectured by supervisor or wateva lahz. lolz. i know i sound rather crude too=x.

so dumb manz. i finally got some books and wanted to go and borrow at e machine. but when i put in my ez-link card. wat was shown on e screen was e dunno wat over-transaction. so fed up! last time my sis used my card to borrow her books and returned late. den now e fine was 30++ dollars. and of cos i cant borrow any books. i really can explode manz. wateva it is. my sis came back and borrowed some books. after tat she went to e food court to eat lorz. i waited for her downstairs. we saw yu ci. she was so funny. i sms her and asked if she was in westmall. she replied with "how you noe? you oso at westmall?" lolz. she was at e third level while we were at e second. she looked around and kept looking upwards. as if we were up dere. lolz. we really waved lyk mad and finally got her attention. heh=x. after tat celeste chong, apple hong and tat fu fang ling. anw all channel u stars. came as well. also to shoot tat tv prog lorz. jiahui was going mad when she saw celeste chong. she so chio mehz? lolz. i tink apple hong chio-er. heh=x. really mahz. she saw pple getting their signatures den she also wan. i only wanted apple's. geez=x. she was jumping anxiously. hoping to get a piece of paper first. den i hv to sacrifice my nice telefone book lorz. she tore out one of e pages and ran to celeste chong. celeste chong was smiling at her. den jiahui was trembling. lolz. i was looking at her at e other side. feeling pai sehz. dOinkZ. lolz. den after tat she got autograph from apple hong. siok ahz! apple hong's autograph nicer. some more she wrote "from fren" siarh! lolz. not even me. so excited for wat. wateva.

finally my sis makan finish liaoz. jiahui went home and my sis and i went to mac to buy some food. wanted to take home for my other sis lorz. so ma fan. haz. den after tat we took mrt to jurong east. den from jurong east took bus 97 back home. i saw ms helen goh at e interchange!!! lolz. she still as chio as ever. but i tink she has reborn her hair. anw still v pretty lahz. heh=x.

today quite fun. hope i m allowed to go out on fri with lyn and limin and zhou chuan xiong they all. geez=]. otherwise i will really decompose at home. or rot i min. cos i din apply any preservatives. bleahx=x. lolz. haz.

GUILTY

[VS 1 - (DUNCAN)]

I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe

[CHORUS - (LEE)]

If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty

[VS2 - (SIMON)]

I wanna give you all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy (be the other guy - [LEE])
I never want to live a lie

[CHORUS - (LEE)]

If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
All I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty

[BRIDGE - (ANTONY)]

Girl I followed my heart
Followed the truth
Right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say

[CHORUS - (LEE)]

If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty

[OUTRO]
What am I supposed to do [Duncan]
Then I'm guilty [Lee]
All I wanna do is speak my mind [All]
Gulity [Lee]
Then I'm guilty [Lee]
I'm prepared to testify [Duncan]
If it's wrong to do what's right then tell me about this feeling inside [Lee]
If loving you with all my heart's a crime [All]
I'm Guilty [Duncan]

V nice and cool and funky and pop and pleasant and wateva tat is nice!!!!! duncan ai wo~ =x..geez..

just now in e afternoon went to je popular bookshop with my sis..oh gosh!!..guilty is out!!!..but is 19bucks..too ex for me..i sure cant buy..or my mum will kill me..but duncan is so shuai!!..oh well..i min duncan has always been shuai..but..i'm so anxious!!..heh..i called siti immediately and she told me she hasnt bought yet..hope she will buy asap den can burn for me..oh well..if any guys were to buy tat for me..i will love him!!!!...lolz...really cant wait to get tat cd in my hands!!!...

anw..siti asked if i wanna go out tmr..so sorry to tell her tat i cant.. cos i hv been going for e past few days..sure cant go out tmr..my mum will kill me..but i shud b going out on fri again..watch movie and stuff..wateva..c first lorz..den sat got hike..after hike go limin's party.. hoping is a nice and great one..sunday..should be going to queensway shopping centre to buy something bahz..monday..got project to do..tue another project..wed..mayb muz do guides le.. haiz..anw just v bz lahz..

wateva it is..gtg do guides toymaker proficiency le..oh yeah..and today is chen yaan's bdae..wished her happy bdae le..can rest my mind le..lolz..heh=x..

hAiz..i'm sO sAd nOW!!!..cant explain y..cant reveal e truth..well..just hv to keep it to myself..only lyn knows bout tis..but anw..wats done is done..cant b undone..since i hv created tis trouble on my own..i hv only myself to blame..hAiz..TiMe HeAlS aLl wOuNdS...

down with a bad flu tis morn..or is i was too sad last nite??..tat caused me to be ill today?..lolz..wat crap is tis..anw..i haven recovered yet..still sad..yet i couldnt say it out..tis darkest, deepest secret..guess only lyn and shawn know..but they promised not to tell any single soul..i know they wont..haiz..nopez..now esther oso know le..but she oso promised wont tell anyone..

yesterday went to work..first day of work..went to uncle's office..e job he assigned to us is rather easy actually..just tiring after doing a lot..his job is actually helping others to design banners..guess is called advertisement design or something..first thing i did was to tear off e sticker-like thing..so many to do!..lolz..my fingers are tired.. but no choice..hv to continue until i could finish all..first day at work mahz..must adapt??..lolz..wateva..anw after tat uncle gave a treat of chicken rice..tat was lousy..not as tasty as home cook one..lolz..i know i'm picky oso..heh..anw..back to e office..second thing to do was to carve out words from e banner..tat was much more challenging and interesting..wateva..at around 5 something..finally can go home le..uncle fetched me back to mrt station..den i took mrt home..tat was horrible..so many stations siarh..almost half an hour on e train..tired..when i reached clementi..still muz walk 15min back home..by e time i reached home..6.30 le..sianz..so tired..some more dinner is leftovers of my sis and bro and father..kaoz..tat was terrible..

after tat.."zhou chuan xiong" called me..he wanted to ask me bout e movie thingy..it was all planned tat we'd b meeting tmr..but now..i'm here at home..din go out..cos of some reasons..tat all happened last nite..well..lyn knows e reason..and lyn's not going as well..i hope limin isnt angry with us..jiahui just called me..she din know tat we're not going today..i sms her last nite to tell her tat..i sms her twice..but she only on her fone tis morn..i m so sorry!!..hope she isnt angry oso..anw i told her to watch with them..hope they dun leave out jiahui..haiz..wateva..i m too restless to care bout tis now..my fone isnt with me..lent to sis..she going to work at uncle's office..i know someone called me just now..but she din tell me who tat was..i heard my fone ring..but din bother to find out who tat was..anw..it doesnt matter to me anymore whoeva tat caller was..wateva..

sAd. sAd. sAd. i m sOOO sAd. nO oNe wOuLd uNdErStAnd e pAiN i m gOiNg tHrU RiGhT nOw. bUt lYk i sAy.. TiMe HeAlS aLl wOuNdS. i'll sOoN bE aLL rIgHt.

anw..getting guilty for my bdae prezzie has become impossible..all has gone down e drain..not cos no one's gonna buy for me..but .... haiz..forget it..i'd rather take a duplicated one..haiz..well nvm..i know no one knows wat i'm talking bout now..no one has to know.. according to wat esther meiz has calculated for me..66 more days for me b one year older..i hope next yr's wud b a happier yr for me..last yr was able to celebrate MY DAY with e all my good frenz..except someone who was extra..hoping next yr wud b a better yr..dun expect to celebrate with anyone..but hope at least pple rmb tat day of MINE..lolz..i muz b too demanding again..haiz..wateva..

not expecting anyone to leave any msg for me..but do sms me..i'm real bored and depressed..i need a shoulder to lean on..ears tat listen to me..hands willing to help me from trouble..well..most impt of all..a hug tat makes me feel warm..

i'm sick..v sick..haiz..*sniff*..

haiz..currently at yiwen's house..tat so-called secret was kinda revealed le..all thx to ke xian and yiwen..keep telling me to tell..-_-".. lolz..haiz..tis two days in yiwen's house..so ... lolz. dunno how to describe. i really regretted saying lahz. haiz... wateva. wats e point of saying now??..lolz..haiz..

yesterday. at e party at west coast park. shouldnt hv gone. i lyk so extra. though i'm not e only one. lolz. yiwen oso. hahahahahaha. lolz. -_-". kinda lame though. hahaz. and tat stupid christopher and yoke hwee. lolz. they so damn...haiz. forget it. n zhou chuan xiong. play e captain's ball. against e girls some more! is tat fair?! wah kaoz siao manz. den i quit e game le. so bo liao. with e guys scoring all e time only. lucky after tat ke xian came. my one-and-only sworn sis. lolz. got one companion to talk to le. she lyk hungry ghost lyk tat. eat and eat. =X. lolz. cant blame her though. she din eat anything before tat. hahaz. den we went to one side of e park to talk cock. lucky she is willing to listen to me complain stuff. lolz.

now...muz do project at yiwen's house..lolz..at her house..her house dunno got wat stuff lahz..i stepped into her just felt lyk sleeping manz..kept yawning..[yawning rite now again=X..]..well but her cousins and brother are v nice pple..hahaz..except she herself actually..geez..nolahz..joking=p..she beside me now mahz..cant say anything bad lorz..haiz..wat a pity..lolz=p..her elder cousin..yuying..v frenly..v responsible oso..apparently more matured den yiwen..[well shes always childish though..heh=x..]geez..her younger cousin.. yuting..is really darn funny..hahahahahaha..pple is "rou ma dang you qu"..which minz take mushy stuff to b interesting and humorous..or wateva lorz..bleahx..geez..but she is .. "kong bu dang you qu".. which instead minz to take horrible and terrifying stuff to b funny.. lolz..tats absolutely true..den her bro..yufu ah..haiz..dunno wat to say bout him siarh..so funny oso..n v mad over games..hahahahahz.. but i wonder y..yiwen's those family members so funny and humorous..but yiwen herself..-_-"..SLACK is e word..sometimes funny only lorz..geez..but they always speak hokkien at home..i so blur siarh..they speak ill of me i oso dunno..hahaz..though i know they wont..geez..

den today just went to macs for lunch..they gave me a treat..geez..n den after tat we went to a big shopping mall to buy things..wah siok manz..those posters of idols so nice and cheap..i was so thrilled and bought two edison chen's posters for kai xin and ke xian..they wud b happy..heh..i oso bought one laminated card of vic zhou for jiahui..she will go mad..lolz..but i regretted not buying more..wat a pity!!..so cheap!!..lolz..all cos yiwen..nv tell me buy more..geez..big sale lehz..nv let me enjoy dere..heh=x..lolz..but anw it was real interesting and fun..hahahahahaz..[someone boasting bout her own house siarh..cos i keep saying her house lyk hotel..geez..]

tmr afternoon going home le..but now..must do project again!!..lolz.. tat project make us so pek cek..boring siarh..okiez okiez..last thing.. today got another new godbro le..tat godbro was acknowledged to avoid misunderstandings..-_-"..lolz..well..but yet cant talk to him le.. lolz..heck..wateva..

phew~..just recovered..my flu is gone..mayb still a little..lol..crap.. haha..mayb i m fine now..so e mood is better oso..geez..was still feeling a little fed up and angry tis morn..but much better now..lol.. today..haiz..another day wasted..i shud hv done my assignments today..but i spent my day doing lame stuff and killing time only..well.. guess i was rite to do some soul-searching..hahaha..now is 7.05pm.. n i just saw my fone n saw siti sms me at 6.07pm..gosh..i really cant reply her..firstly..my bill has exceeded..secondly..my fone is going crazee!!..lol..in e sense tat..is not really in order..haiz..nvm..i will find ways to reply her..well but her sms oso quite chim..yesterday nite shuyi just asked me some confusing qns..wat..eh..if a single lyks a single den tat single dun wan to hv a stead and dun feel lyk falling in love den how..wah..i blur le..i was only telling her bout tat shawn tay and his fren..simply cos she seem kinda interested..geez=x..den after tat she asked me soo many chim chim qns..i guess someone wans to jio her..hahaha..well..she shud consider tat guy if he is a shuai one..heh=x..lol..back to siti..wah..her qn more chim siarh..eh.. wat..opposites attract..and erm..chemistry btwin couples..oh gosh.. my brain's v unclear now..lol..anw..try to reply her later bahz..

so fed up tis morn..cos i tried to dl jay's an jing mtv from irc..den e file loaded for bout 50 min??..tink so..den i so excited..go and open e file to watch e mtv..i was soo happy..following e tune..singing along.. though i know my voice sux..heh=x..n den sudd..e best part..wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni..shi yin wei..DEN IT STOPPED!!..lol..so zun ah?..den i realised tat e file isnt a complete one..wad de..spoiling my mood siarh..anw..i deleted e file..den keep listening to e cd esther soh lent me..cos got an jing oso mahz..well..obviously lahz..i borrowed from her for e sake of tat song lehz..geez..lol..i listened so many times tat i could memorise without even having to look at any lyrics le..heh..now still listening..lol..60 more days..my bdae..3 more days..jiahui's bdae..8 more days..huimin's bdae..16 more days.. angeline and furball's bdae..oh cool..i will hv lotsa greetings to make..hahaha..lol..4 more days..wud b a memorable day..hm..well..wateva..it isnt tat impt actually..heh..

iya!..forgot to watch holland v!..oh my..shaun chen is back!..geez=x.. shuai ge lehz..lol..muz watch le..

woke up at 9.30++...n immediately on my fone n sms jiahui to wish her happy bdae..how could i ever forget my mei's bdae??..lol..she was happy..i said i was sorry for not preparing any bdae prezzies for her n she understood..phew~..when she comes online at 10++..i greet her again..wat a joke!..she said she wan to buy blue's album for me as bdae prezzie next yr..another 57 days..haha..but i rejected it..din wan her to waste money..scurri everyone knows i lyk blue n desire e blue's new album den all buy for me..den wouldnt i hv lotsae same original copies?..lol..anw..i hope i could throw a small party at my new house next yr..den can invite pple to my house..hope so la..i wud hv lotsa pple to invite by den..lol..

just uploaded some new pics..today is 15nov03..one year ago..which is last yr..last yr's today..i wud b in school..getting ready for e p6 graduation ceremony..i really missed it..tat day was a memorable one..each p6 cls were to go up to stage to bow and dere was oso a prize presentation ceremony..den muz sing e graduation song..wat de man..i was e only person who cried in 6f!!..lol..they so heartless siarh..=x..oh yeah..mrs kee cried oso..hahaha..lol..could still rmb e sight was so touching..i really hoped to go back to e days..haiz..but wats e use of saying tis now??..is over..is e past..lol..

tat day..was a wonderful one..a sad one as well..i regretted not hugging my frenz more..though i still go back to nhps often to visit e teachers..but i miss my frenz as well..dun really keep in touch with some of them..but being e cls monitress for 2 yrs..i hv all their contacts..though some of them failed to give me their contacts when they moved or watsoever..i wanted to organix cls gatherings..but too busy too do so..yet they arent any organized to hold a gathering as well..hm..i miss e days..really missed them..i'm glad i took many fotos of them at e graduation day last yr..n i still hv those cls fotos with me..hoping tat all of them would go back next fri..tis time..i know i wud hug them..haha..

hm..is kinda late in e nite now..feeling kinda sian..nothing to do..just finished revising e sec1 chinese textbook..i min..some chapters..lots more to finish..taking a break now..wanted to hv a cup of hot milo and some biscuits for supper..but looking at my size again..guess i better b on a diet..haha..

on many occasions..i was hoping to c at least "1 message received" on my fone..cos my fone's gonna b confiscated soon..lyk lyn..so i hope i can hv pple sms-ing me to greet me..definitely not to ask me stuff n wateva..i know i m lyk wat medwin said..DEMANDING..lol..m i?.. perhaps?..i dun seem to know myself well enough..all i know is tat i aint tat simple=x..sometimes weird..or is it unique?..haha..n kinda up to mischief all e time??..lol..pple who know me well will know wat i m always up to..i just dunno myself well..anw..back to e previous topic..it has been a long time since someone ever sent me a msg to ask how i hv been..bout a month ago..huixian did tat..i was v happy..i hv not seen her for bout 4 to nearly 5 years..she's my p1 clsmate..v good fren indeed..she sudd sms me to ask how i hv been..oh i really missed her..once..senior xue lin oso sms some nice msgs..tat chio bu from 4b2..i m soo happy..at least someone still rmbs me..oh i m so glad..she is really nice..lucky i got to know her..few days ago..yanhong called me..my fone wasnt with me..but i din call him back..din feel lyk doing so..i know wat he has in mind..go back to nhps lo..not tat i m ignoring him..but i dunno wats e use of going back when e ex students who did not bring much glory to e school will not b recognised?..crap again..e teachers..often c us n seemed to get bored n they hv lesson with their students as well..we cant b interrupting their lessons all e time..

oh well i seem to b rotting at home..or actually i min..i can choose something to do..cos i hv lotsa things to complete..mentorship prog chinese project..cme project..hols assignments..stuff to tidy to move to new house soon..all kinds of things..but i just find them too boring n tats y i aint interested to do..besides using e com..just clearing some mails..n stuff..wateva..all crap..i m dead bored..i m bored to e core..hm..wud anyone rmb me n sms me to greet me before e 18th tis month?..otherwise..okie..nvm..i just rmb i hv got something new to do..gonna b darn busy with tat..cant mention it..cos many pple wud b reading my journal n they wud know wat i m up to again..anw i hope my tots wud b appreciated n hope my frenz lyk me [AS A FREN OF COS] n lyk wat i hv for them as well..wateva it is..even if they dun lyk me..i will still love them..my frenz for life!..lol..

i dun seem to b in e right mind currently ah??..[scratching my head..] i m speechless..blank in e mind..loss of words..
JUST CRAP

today..went to work at uncle's office again..but tis time went with da jie n er mei guoyi..guoyi played truant=x..geez..lol..but today nothing much to do at e office..so went off early..wanted to go to jurong to eat..but mum dun allow..so din go..wanted to go to westmall oso.. mum oso dun allow..so took bus 985 to bukit batok to take train.. kaoz man..tat bus journey was a long one..fell asleep on e bus siarh..den finally took train to jurong east..n den take bus again..tis time took bus 97 back home..wah..i v hungry siarh..got da jie help me go downstairs buy gardenir bread n i ate four pieces of them.. with nutella spread..geez=p..den after tat took shower..oh cool..
lol..

after tat muz plan tmr's prog le..tmr going back to nhps with shaun they all n after tat need to go to yuyuan house do cme project.. hopefully we can finish by tmr or i die of overload manz..oh wateva it
is la..hope tmr yuyuan prepare a feast for me..heh=x..

today sarch sms me..oh he muz b feeling darn bored cos it seemed lyk he seldom touch his fone..lol=x..he said he dun hv a find a gf to disturb..haha wat a joke..i tot he meant he wud ka jiao his gf if he had one..hahaha..hes a nice guy..at least i find tat he is..quite a true fren..sometimes too candid though..heh=x..he seems desperate
but i gave him words of encouragement..n tat makes me feel tat i really sounded lyk a counsellor den..lyk wat siti n lyn said..geez..i love to give counselling at timesthough..heh=x..

hm..tmr got lotsa things to do le..eh..i feeling hungry again..gosh man..i will really go darn fat..lol..well i m already..lol..hope next yr our pe teacher wud b mrs sam again den make us run few rounds den i can maintain..lol=x..oh ya..just got chris' number..he really seems so happy to get a hp..looks lyk hes going around telling pple bout it..
heh=x..i guess so..not sure..haha..but i dun find his reaction surprising though..tats wat i did when i just got my hp too..geez=p.. currently talking to limin..she doesnt seem much lyk herself though.. mayb lyk wat hc says..tats her bro..or i m over sensitive..lol..cant blame her la..cos i just asked her a lame qn..heh=x..anw..zhou chuan xiong online again..he just signed in..den limin oso signed
in..oh cool..so zun..haha..tat guy..so called SHY siarh..i told him to jio her..heh=x..n he thanked me for encouraging him..he really sounded
kinda funny..hahaha..well hope limin accepts him=x..den dere will b another pair in our cls!!..hahahahahahaha..m i sounding kinda evil?..or is it extremely?
geez..

[dun look at things on e surface..if anyone ever understands tis quote of mine..i wud b glad..e pit is really getting deeper..n i m really falling into it..or perhaps i hv already fallen into it..i guess so..
someone save me pls='(..]

today at 12++ just went to nhps..with shaun shentong jo lys..din really enjoy in fact..just talked to mrs hoh a.k.a ms yin..mrs kee n zhang lao shi..after tat met bj lyn n huiling at macs..den took bus 173 to yuyuan's house..on e surface is to go dere do project..but i guessed we played more den we did..lol..we reached dere n had beehoon for lunch..after tat went to explore his house..okie..mayb not me ba..is them lo..cos is their first time at yuyuan's house ma..anw..we went into yuyuan's room and started with stuff..i on e cd player n put in e jay cd..den they started playing prank calls..well i was involved as well=x..we called many pple..limin..zirui..shirley..who else ah??..iya cant rmb la..anw..after tat started doing a bit..den too sian..cos yuyuan went for his tuition..wont b back so soon..den they ate ice cream den talked cock a little..lol..n after tat went up again..haiz..before tat..they saw a spider on yuyuan's bed..all of them screamed siarh..so loud..my ear drums almost burst..kaoz..somemore huiling screamed when she was talking on e fone with limin halfway..i wonder if limin still can hear things..lol=x..den after tat we went home..

haiz..i cant write anymore..i m NOT HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...
i just feel lyk i m tearing apart soon n i wanna burst out into tears!!!!
i cant control myself anymore..haiz..if anyone were to call me..i guess i wont ans le..if anyone were to sms me..i guess..i dunno if i wud reply..but anw..i wanna just knock my head against e wall now n die man.......................

can i not appear to b strong all e time?

today just went back to nhps again..e concert was okie..but din really enjoyed it....after tat went to macs with furball n biqing..but i only ate furball's fries..n nothing much..den waited for yiwen..

yiwen n i made our way to limin's house..or shall i say..limin took us to her house when we reached e bus stop..we were meddling bout with e laptop..den sudd..dunno wat happened..e laptop went crazy..n we couldnt do anymore..so we went downstairs..played captain's ball or is it netball or is it bball..watever..i din enjoy e game at all..not at all..how i enjoy a game lyk tat when ...... haiz..lotsa pple understand..i was lyk an obvious extra person standing in e middle of e court..getting into pple's way..so darn extra..

den finally went home..today..msg alot of pple..shuyi..ernie..siti..n dunno who else..shuyi n ernie n siti were pple trying to cheer me up..which was to no avail..on msn..esther meiz n lyn..oso trying to tell me to b strong..how can i b strong??..i really felt lyk crying..i m feeling hot all over now..i haven smiled ever since i stepped into home till now..

tmr going for mentorship..no mood at all..just woke up from an 'evening nap' not long ago..totally down now..who can i turn to..? now?

i cant define true love.
i cant define unconditional love.
to me. deres isnt such thing.
never.
i agree totally with shuyi.
i hv to take things in my stride.
love cannot b controlled.
if not.
y do couples break up?
love doesnt last forever.
time heals all wounds.

i hv been sad for 1 week 3 days and 13 hours.
i will overcome tis.
my true frenz are dere for me.
seeing me get over tis.

mayb.
perhaps.
you shud tell me.
we are just frenz.
though i know tat.
but i wan to hear it from you.
i guess i wud not give up.
and i dun hv to give up.
cos in e first place i haven pinned any hopes.
but let me know.
we are frenz.
are we?

++ dark clouds gathering.. ++

woke up at 7.06 in e morning and got changed into my uniform. or i min e shirt only. skirt was v crumpled. tried to look for another one. but couldnt find it at all. guess it was missing. so told my maid to iron e crumpled one. den when i was all ready. opened door n got ready to walk to school. yiwen so !@#$%^&* one. lol=x. at tat time den sms to tell me rmb to bring shi ji tat chinese book.so i went back to my house. n rmb tat e book was in my box. which was gonna b moved to e new house soon. so i had a hard time looking for e book n den rushed to school. den on my way dere. saw a big dog. tat dumb dog seemed to b following me or something. of cos. i was scared. lol=x. so i walked at e grass patch. so sway. dere was a pit but of cos i not so dumb to fall into it. one foot just almost slided in and almost sprained my ankle. but lucky din. den almost reached le. yiwen kept calling. asked me where i was. haiz. anw. when i reached. was darn hungry. but dunno wat to eat. so bought a Hersheys at 7eleven. wanted to buy kinderbueno but din tot of tat in e first place. heh=x. anw. i cant survive without chocolates. so anw wud do. lol=x. [big hint ah. lol=x]

took bus 196 to nhss. was getting sian. so scared oso. cos din finish e presentation. was afraid of kana scolding from teacher. lol=x. but still went dere and waited for e teachers and pple to arrive. groups were presenting their slides and reports and watever crap den finally our group. we explained everything to yanyi and evelyn and hoped they could present out last min work well so tat we could pass tis round. lol=x. heng siarh~ teacher din scold at all. but gave comments to let us improve on our work. e diff teachers helped us alot. heng heng heng~ lol=x. den finally e lesson ended. another nice teacher brought us some snacks. but dun feel lyk eating. but e funny teacher said muz eat at least one bun or we were not supposed to leave. lol=x. so yiwen and i were forced to eat a bun. den finally left.

we went back to school. many pple were still dere. ncc guys. np pple. guides. st johns. band esp. at umbrella area providing pple with free music. lol=x. but e first bunch of pple i saw when i walked into e school was sec2 n sec3 guides. they having footdrill i suppose. saw baoyue liyi limei and melissa. their o's were over. muz b relaxed le. anw. we went to toilet first. den saw medwin. just said hi. den went off le. after tat looked for a table to settle down so we could set our qns for e survey form for our mentorship thingy. we were only looking around. looking for shuai ge i guess. or she was only looking e band members concentrating on their playing of instruments? wateva la. heck. heh=x.

we set some qns le den e band pple got break. we pulled esther ng n tsu hui to answer qns. but we were only talking crap. lol=x. i passed esther ng and tsu hui their xmas cards. i got it ready long time ago. din hv many stamps. so couldnt send it to them. heh=x. they were happy. kept saying thank you. lol=]

i sms chris. asked him do me a favour. wanted him to help me do my survey. den shun bian passed to his frenz help me do. geez=x. lol. i guess he has promised to try to help. heh. den sheena and i went up to e clsroom where e sec1 guides were to submit my toymaker scrapbook. wanted to pass to queenie but she was doing footdrill. wanted to pass to jiahui den but passed to limei instead. lol=x. heng siarh~ they having song sessions. lucky i wasnt dere. cos i dun lyk to sing those songs. heh=x. i quickly ran down again. den quickly finished e survey qns thingy den yiwen went home.

den ncc guys were out. i passed xmas cards to kian wee and shawn. den guides finally come out le. shirley all those netball girls oso finished their training le. den limin helped me pass xmas card to shirley. kexin saw my handwriting on e envelope n shouted to me. she said v nice!.. geez=x. i so pai seh siarh~ lol=x. but anw i oso passed e other card to kexian. no stamps to post too. lol=x. den i passed e 5 bucks to queenie. for e seniors' farewell party de. heh. den oso passed e xmas cards to esther jiemin huimin and jiahui. when i passed e card to jiahui tog with e belated bdae card and e laminated zai zai pic. she so happy man. lol=x. she almost wanted to hug me. haha. den some were saying thank you to me. dunno who complaining tat it was too early. lol=x. den esther and huimin went to macs first. and jiahui went to look for OUXIANG angeline to pass her bdae prezzie. i din prepare any for her. feeling so sorry. heh=x. den jiemin and i went to bookshop to buy books. i min i wanted to buy books. sec2 books. kaoz. at first i carried. was quite light. as i walk to macs. kaoz. sooo heavy man. so jiahui and jiemin helped me carry them for a while. heh=x.

den jiahui jiemin kianwee weisheng and i walked to macs. esther and huimin were complaining cos we were v late. geez=x. so sorry le. heh. den we had lunch lo. i gulped down a mcspicy double in less den 7 min cos i was really starving lyk mad. kianwee and weisheng were sitting at another table. probably SOMEONE avoiding SOMEONE lo. geez=x. lol. den after tat we strolled around e pasar malam. i loved tat. couldnt spend my money to buy those nice-smelling food. but simply looking at them is enough for me. i wud b contented. heh. lol=x.

2pm. kinda late le. i went back to e gate of e school. called dad to pick me up. but he wasnt free. so rang up sis instead. she wud b helping me share e burden. my books i meant. heh=x. but she was darn slow man. heh=x. and so. i carried my bag and e two bags of books and walked towards my house. hoping to meet sis soon. haiz. walked and stopped. walked and stopped. finally stopped at nearby playground. waited for her. strange ah? a man asked me for direction. and den an indonesian maid oso asked me where to buy phonecards. as if i were dere to direct pple man. lol=x. finally sis appeared. we walked home. perspiring profusely of cos. den i quickly ran into e house and lied on e bed. i had a bad backache.

haven even taken a shower and yet using e com now. used for v long le=x. beginning to cheer up a little. currently talking to ernie's bro. he's funny. real funny. and got great taste. cos he lyks blue. heh=x. e darks clouds hv dispersed. a while ago. it seemed lyk it was gonna rain soon. lol. time for me to take a shower. and time for dinner. time to watch tv. heh=x. hoping tmr is a better day.

++ end ++

loving x duncan x

i wished.
i wished i could turn back time.
not tat i wan to know you earlier den anyone did.
cos i hv known you long ago.
just a simple reason.
tat is.
if i could turn back time.
i wud choose not to know you at all.
perhaps tat way i would feel better.
i would hv felt better now.
but is it too late?
yes.
too late.
i muz had been real dumb.
yes definitely.
v dumb.

y?
y is tis so?
y is it tat even my best fren.
b such a wet blanket.
when i m already down.
on another side.
y did my good fren.
reveal a secret.
tat shud b kept?
dere is no true love.
but is dere no true frenz as well?
i seem to b lost.
i seem to b out of place.
tis world is so dark.
who wud brighten up tis place?
and let me recognise e pple?
e pple who are real and true?

++ let e music heal your soul.. ++

morning woke up at 10.14 and wrote names on some of my new books. at 11am. switched on e tv and watched tat my fair princess. 11.37am. had mee goreng for "breakfast". den after tat continued to watch tv.

in e afternoon. dad's frenz came. lunch was chicken rice. but i was busy using e com so i din eat. now. 3.06pm. sitting in front of e com. staring into e com screen. eating chicken rice. which is my lunch. mood swings again? mayb. perhaps. -shrugs-

short entry today. mayb wud write more in e evening or at nite. din enjoy my lunch. when one is unhappy. e food consumed tastes bland. mayb. but tis is my principle? mayb. perhaps. i can turn to no one rite now.

today is wj's bdae. just called him not long ago to wish him happy bdae. din even thank me. lol=x.

shawn told hc tat i hacked into his msn acc and showed limin tat she was under a certain category. + crap + looks lyk everyone's interested to know limin's reaction. was i in e wrong to do tat? i din do it on purpose! it was unintentional. but i seem to b e bad guy again. okiez. i quit. i dunno wat to do. no comments. well afterall. limin's so chio. lol=xx. a nice girl indeed. popular among everyone. liked by everyone. v cool oso. esp when playing netball. lol=x.

i aint petty. but no one understands. i m . s p e e c h l e s s.

++ end ++

loving x duncan x

let e music heal your soul.
let e music take control.
let e music give you.
e power to move any mountain.

i always hoped.
you're e one.
dere with me.
sharing my brightest moments.
however.
tat was only a desire.
a simple desire.
which dun hv to b fulfilled.
i wan us to b frenz.
just frenz.

++ nicey pics.. ++

woke up at 10.14 in e morning n den jeremy sms me. asking bout a pretty girl she saw at e mdm fong retirement dinner last nite. but i din go. lol=x. anw. after having breakfast. used e com till now. just checked my mail an hour ago. shawn sent me two similar e-cards apologising to me cos he told hc i showed limin his msn account. lol=x. i din blame him lahz. but he kept thinking tat i was angry and kept apologising. anw. apology accepted. though he did nothing wrong. heh=xx.

just uploaded some new pics. jay's and edison's. all v nice. geez=]. got jay's ones from tis v nice webby. really v nice. geez=]. http://www.tvseriesfans.com/forums/showthread/t-4608.html
but forgot to copy down edison's. geez=]. but nvm de. almost e same mahz. heh=xx. another short entry today. later yiwen coming to my house to do e mentorship thingy. i so dumb man. i din know my com can actually type chinese words den kept going around asking pple for e chinese hansware software. kaoz. darn stupid me. lol=xx.

hm. hope can b back later...

++ end ++

loving x duncan x

i once tot.
it has been an unfair game.
but i came to tink of it again.
it is fair.
v fair.
simply bcos.
love is meant to b blind.
so i blame no one.
i accept tis fact.
i face up to reality.
we're still good frenz anw.
arent we?

it has been a long time.
since you last sms me.
but i felt better.
cos i know i wouldnt.
wouldnt fall into e pit anymore.
at least if i were to fall into it.
e pit isnt getting deeper.
no longer getting deeper.
i know.
we're just frenz.
just frenz.
and you are.
my good fren. =]

++ so damn pek cek ++

now tat everyone at home has gone out for supper at west coast and i am left at home with my sis and maid. i m glad i din go out. or i wouldnt hv e chance to use e com rite now. so damn pek cek. i only wanted to use e com for a while to edit my survey form den my tat bro kept arguing with me. just for e use of e com. arg!!! but anw. yiwen and i finished e survey le. finally! haiz. but she going back to taiwan soon. and i hv to do e remaining stuff. just cos e other two members of e group arent contributing enough. but we were afraid of reprimanding them. so scared they not suang den dun wan to do a single thing. haiz. wateva. now e most impt thing is to let pple do my survey!! geez=x. so nervous. dunno y. anxious to complete my analysis asap and possibly finished hols assignments as well so tat i can enjoy!! hm. though i tink tat is rather impossible for now.

anything. wateva. gotta get on with my work. suddenly so used to typing chinese words after discovering tat i could actually type chinese words in my com without any chinese software. geez=]. i sound and seem so mad! wateva=xx.

another short entry. not watching westside story. tat kua zang show. heh=x. i blif many pple who were to hear me say tis. wud sure come after me and bash me up. pple lyk siti or shuyi. geez=]. gotta slp soon le. Zzz.....

++ end ++

loving x duncan x

and you know tat we belong tog.
it just had to b you and me.
cos you bring out e best in me.
lyk no one else can do.
tats y i'm by your side.
n tats y i love you.

in life.
dere are ups and downs.
b willing to make mistakes.
b willing to try out some things.
b willing to accept tat as you try out new things.
dere will b some untidiness.
dere will b some imperfection.
mistakes.
and mishaps. =]

++ quadruplets cousins ++

my cousins just went home. they are quadruplets. two boys two girls. e four respective names are xu - han, ting, min and ang. v cute!! heh=x. though they are already five years old. but they look so small sized and cute and short. heh. i bet i was taller den them at their age. geez=x. they used to cry and scream when they c my siblings and i. but now. they wud even play with us. soo happy. geez=]. however. they always lyk to win and dun really lyk to "admit defeat". wateva games they play. they expect to win all e time. but of cos. being e third oldest sis of theirs, i wud always give in to them. geez=].

tis morn just emailed e nie teacher to let him view our survey. hoped he approved asap den i can distribute. heh=x. yesterday called ben and esther to interview them. but they couldnt answer my qns well cos they were really darn tough. heh=x. hm.

gotta watch tv le. currently talking to shawn. he and tat chuan xiong kept telling me stuff bout limin. lol=xx. haha. Zzz...

++ end ++

loving x duncan x

i took a long time.
to pull myself tog.
to b strong.
to wake up from my dream.
or is it nightmare?
but y is it tat.
only one word from you.
both of you.
can make my eyes 'flood'?

if loving you was a challenge.
i wouldnt take up tis challenge.
it seems too tough.
too tough for me.
i m contented.
seeing you happy.
seeing you grin.
seeing you smile all e time.
your laughter warms my heart.
just you only.
my happiness.
keep smiling.

++ correct decision? correct choice? ++

if i hv chosen to go and play bball with them. i wouldnt b here using e com rite now. i wud b standing in e middle of e court. getting into pple's way again. lol=x. wateva. but anw v scared kexian later not suang cos i said i wud b going but in e end still din go. lol=x. yesterday. or was it e day before? arh wateva. tat zcx asked if i din wan to go and play with them cos he wud b dere. i was almost too stunned. too shocked tat he wud ask tat. i was speechless. den he tol me he heard it from kexian. lol=x. i dunno. no idea. dunno if i shud blame her for talking rubbish and some crap. or shud i thank her for letting him know e truth and understand how i feel being e extra? lol=x. really no idea. -shrugs- wateva. heh.

today really v bored at home. chatted with a few pple. oh yeah. long time nv c lyn le. lol=x. wonder how she is. and jiahui. wanted to call her. but she's at chalet now. lol=x. just replied sarch's and shawn's msgs at msn grp. tat place is certainly too quiet. need someone to liven it up. lol=x.

shud i go tmr? play bball with them? or shud i say distribute my survey forms? arg... really v confused. oh yeah. yiwen going back to taiwan tmr. she muz b real happy. cant wait to go back asap man. lol=x. muz call her now. tell her buy souvenirs for me. geez=xx. as if she wud buy for me. lol. den when she leaves. mentorship thingy all leave to me to complete..... Zzz....... haiz....

++ end ++

loving x duncan x

i lyk you.
for being frank.
for being candid.
for being outspoken.
for being open.
but i hate you.
for being too truthful to me.
tat you hurt me.
too deeply.

i guess.
i muz b getting stronger.
each day.
dunno if we are still frenz.
but even if we arent.
i m glad.
i aint liking you more.
my feelings for you.
arent getting stronger.

++ many mosquito bites ++

woke up at 8.21 in e morning and started washing up and den changed. den met hui ling outside 7 eleven in central. we took bus 282 to ginza. cos i wan photocopy my survey forms. tot e shop wouldnt b opened so early. so we went around looking at handphones. though shops werent opened too. den we sat down. talked rubbish. and den went to check if e shop has opened. lol. long ago opened le lo. so i photocopied 30 copies of e survey form. and den we called limin to ask when she wud b playing bball. she said 12!! lol. really regretted meeting hui ling so early. dumb me! lol. so we went to e west coast cc. went to e study area to 'analyse' our survey forms. hui ling did 4 pieces for me=x. oh man. lol. gotta thank her. geez. so we waited till bout 11.35 den we walked to limin's house.

she was wearing a "dress" or something lyk tat and still looking so sleepy. haha. i got a shock when i saw e outfit she was in. bleahx. heh. den waited for her to bath. den walked here walked dere. finally. 12pm. we walked down. to e bball court. so zun. chris they all oso reach le. really lyk so qiao woa. lol=x. den they started playing lo. den hui ling and limin helped me do my survey form. den after a while sharon and elaine and kexin come le. they oso helped me do my survey. sense of accomplishment! lol=x. den kexian oso came. oso helped me do. felicia came. oso helped me do. den oso let chris they all do. kaoz man. their chinese real lousy. =x. no offence thou. geez=x. but they really lousy man. some simple chinese words read till dunno lyk wat la. lol=x. a pity peiyi and shirley din come! or i can let them do le. geez=x. but nvm. tmr they got netball. still can let them do. oh yeah. tmr got many ccas. can let them do le. geez. oh yeah! still got seniors. heh=x.

where was i? oh yeah. den we played bball-cum-netball-cum-captains ball. lol. +craP+ den tat chuan xiong kept blocking pple. lol. simply cos hes a good player and is tall. APPEARS TO B KINDA ARROGANT THOU. whoops? lol. heh=x. den dere was once limin passed e ball to me and hit my shoulder. ouch! tats a hard one. lol. den we just passed around. kexian hui ling and i din dare to shoot. lol=x. but anw it sudd rained. and we went in. stopped raining. it was a drizzle at first. den gradually started pouring real heavily. den kexian hui ling and i went to e coffee shop nearby. wanted to buy some food to fill our stomach. i called limin. wanted to ask her wat she wanted to eat. but den she din ans. so i hv to call chris instead. cant expect me to call chuan xiong ma rite? heh=x. den when chris answered e call. he sounded so fed up when i requested to get limin to e fone. so sorry man! geez=x. limin wanted fries anw. cos i anyhow told her we may b going to ginza e mac dere. den so sway. not many stalls were opened. and e rain was too big. so we ended up buying potato chips and sweet at a nearby provision shop. lol. but potato chips and fries are both from potato rite? so doesnt make a big diff la. geez=x.

after resting for a little while at e void deck. limin hui ling elaine kexian chris hc e clement and i went to e other block to play e wateva 'block catching'. i went with kexian. we were playing around e hdb flats. we girls were supposed to hunt for e guys. limin hui ling and elaine went by e stairs while kexian and i went up by e lift. den so zun again lorz. we just anyhow choose to go to e 5th level den we saw e three guys. but i guess they tot we werent playing or something. so they just walked away as if we were invisible. to tink kexian even waved and said hi to them leh! lol. but anw. kexian's intuition was really accurate man! after tat. she guessed twice where e guys wud b and she got it rite on target both times. LoL! cool hah?!

den at bout 3.30. i gotta go. kinda spoil sport thou=x. but really hv to go. so hui ling walked me to e bus stop and i stood dere waited for 20 min++. den i saw chuan xiong and e clement ran to e other direction. guess they wanted to buy a drink or something. den hui ling sudd came and told me chris din take e forms with him. -_-" dOiNkZ. lOl.

oh man. gotta eat dinner. b back later.

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okie where was i? oh yeah. so tat christopher xie zhen hui who is oso lyn's godbro lorz. din take back e forms and in e end hv to trouble hui ling again to call him and ask him wat to do. lol. he again promised to help me. thou i dun pin high hopes tis time. lol lol lol !

anw. today quite fun le. better den e previous time. i enjoyed tis time. is 'funner' tis time. is dere such a word? okie heck. anw i learnt from chris de. he wud b misleading me if dere isnt such word. lol=xx. e netball girls were actually v nice. nice pple. oh yeah. did i mention tat shuyi wrote a testimonial for me at frenster? geez=x. she wrote until i so nice lyk tat. geez. muz thank her man. and i owe her one testimonial now. haha=] but anw v glad to c so many pple write for me and i gonna write for them too. geez=x.

oh man. v tired. tmr got guides. gotta slp now! Zzz...

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loving x duncan x

i know we are frenz.
cos i feel better.
when i could talk to you.
in a position of a fren.
frenz are forever.
and tat makes us.
frenz forever. =]
loving you forever.
as a fren.