if you come back .......

wTh la.jus typed one long page mann.den com lag and hang.wat e.really bTh my laggy com le siarh.den everything disappeared le.haiz.haiz.later got time den update la.i'm so tired.tired of pretending all e time.y must i always accomodate others?..y nv i tot of myself?..i always do things for e benefit of others.y is this so?..this is not self praise.but anw.no one appreciates it.

had a horrible dream jus now during my nap.dreamt that zcx saw sther den wanted to wave to him den when i walked past he put down his hand.rather true in reality thou.haiz.watever.i hate myself la.i try to be kind to others.but almost no one cares abt me.i try to be cold.but i realise i would be too selfish.wat m i supposed to do?

mel - thanks for including me in all your entries.love you to bits too.i noe you are currently stil very confused over that matter.i aint involved anymore thou.dun have to thank me so much.i counselled you cos you are my best fren ma.haha.and oso you are under my counselling list.keke.lol.thanks for always being with me these days.shall nv forget you this fren de.oh ya.i really love e neoprints mann.so niceeyy.first time take neoprints den find myself look so shun yan.despite wat he said.lol.maybe cos you are inside e neoprints?..haha.you must be smiling le.haha.take care yea?..drink lotsa water yea?..haha.cya. =)

siti - heyy honey.haven been really talking to you since sch reopened.well.shall catch up with you one of these days yea?..cya.drink lotsa water.lol.take care. =)

stheng - yo lao po.dun say i rmb my qing fu. i mean mistress.den forgot you.i didn hor.haha.i miss you loads in e hols mann.wanted to call you up but couldn find e chance.take care yea?..drink lotsa water hor.cya.

jiahui - heyy gal.thanks for always understanding how i feel thou i always dun tell you.dun worry.is not that i dun trust you or watever.but being e so called 'counsellor'.i dun wan others to counsel me de.haha.maybe is zi zun xin too strong.haha.take care uh.drink lotsa water hor.cya. =)

min - hey "mama"!..lol.my sunshine siarh.thanks for brightening me up these days with your warm smiles.haha.really enjoyed hanging out with you guys these days mann.take care hor.drink lotsa water.cya. =)

sheena - heyy nana!..haha.got miss me?..lol.thanks so muchie for being with me these days mann.i'm so glad that we are so close now.haha.you are one of my best frens now.haha.and ya.thanks for 'faking' with me to bluff him.thou he doesn really blif.lol.but anw.maybe we both give up on guys le ba.haha.but dun worry.i wont blame you if you have designs on any guys.haha.take care yea?..drink lotsa water.cya. =)

nicolle - hey cuteey.haha.dun worry.your note for me today wasn lame.how nice and sweet of you.haha.dun you ever worry. i wil not neglect you de yea?..take care hor.drink lotsa water.cya. =)

amirah - hey gal.missed me so much rite?..haha.do stil feel free to talk to me via that book.i wil try my best to reply asap.btw.i can c that you're rather a diff person now.so much more happier and cheered.haha.glad to c you like this.maintain hor.haha.take care yea?..drink lotsa water.cya. =)

lyn - hey lyn.long time no talk.haha.i miss you so much thou i jus saw you.haha.shall catch up with you one of these days yea?..take care.drink lotsa water.cya. =)

shirley - hey gal.dun think you wil be reading this.but anw.dun always look so depressed lor.your laughter is infectious.so better laugh more and infect me yea?..haha.take care.drink lotsa water.cya. =)

limin - hey my guai daughter.lol.dun think i forgot you le hor.dunno y.these days find you so dao to me.lol.maybe i over sensitive lor.ha.glad that you got e first today.you're so great.oh ya.abt that thing rite.you better blif me hor.cos i m really speaking e truth.if you dun blif me.i wil feel like i m not to be trusted de.haha.take care hor.drink lotsa water.cya. =)

junrong - hey.ni mei shi ba?..hmmm.our plight abt e same ba.but perhaps you wil like to say you're worse den me.haha.anw uh.look on e positive side lor.dun have to think so muchie de.you always tell me to cheer up.you too okie?..take care.drink lotsa water.cya. =)

kianwee - hey weeboy.dunno wats up with you these days.like so depressed.haha.influenced by her wor?..haha.noe you wont be reading this.but pls bear in mind.if you wan jio her.take e initiative lor.keke.i wil always zi chi ni de.haha.but dun neglect your work hor.you're my 'maria'.supposed to do work for me de!!..haha.take care hor.drink lotsa water.cya. =)

kaixin - hey jie.haven heard from you for quite long le.missed you mann.haha.thanks for giving me your piece of advice in e hols by saying he sucks.hahaha.you take care okie?..drink lotsa water.cya. =)

shuyi - hey yo!..haha.nice new blog you have.haha.striking siarh.haha.like so long nv c you le.haha.you owe me an ice cream rmb?..haha.jus joking jus joking.hahaha.must strive hard for your o's le hor.but i noe you must be slogging hard le.haha.thanks for giving me so much advice too.haha.take care yea?..drink lotsa water.cya. =)

sther - hey gal.dun think i wrote you last cos i rmb you last or even dun intend to write for you.i dunno wat i should say le.maybe we wont be as close as b4 le.but jus wanna tell you.watever happens.you can always look for us.no matter how far apart we may be.i noe we wil stil help you.take care.drink lotsa water.cya. =)meili -

meili uh!!!!!..my beloved ps.hahaha.dun get disgusted over wat i say.haha.jus tot i could drop you something.how niceeyy of me rite?..haha.i heard from chris xie that he always bully you de.if you bully you again you must tell me okie?..haha.i shall go get even with him.haha.take care hor.drink lotsa water.cya. =)

whoever i have left out.i'm sorry den.dunno wat to say le.cant rmb who i wanted to say something to.lol.if i really wan to say something to all my frens.that wil take forever de.lol.take care peepz.drink lotsa water!..haha.

guo *|a|a
7.50pm

tuition jus ended.
this morning went to meet weeboy at clementi at 10 15.
we dumb siarh.can take e first train but took e second.cos weeboy complained too many pple in e first.but e second one was worse.lol.
den met junrong at commonwealth.nice one na.so 'punctual' mann.haha lol.
den we took 100 to queensway shopping centre.
finally bought my uniform.so happy.keke.after all i have only been using my that one and only uniform ma.keke.
den we bought ear rings for shirley.very cheap and niceeeyy.but stupid one siarh.shirley preferred e one kianwee chose.but siti they all said i choose one nicer.gee.yay nice one na. haha.
den we went back to sch in 147.
min they all reached sch le.den everyone oso arrived one by one.
we took same bus as 2c2.not that bad lor.stil got shirleen and kexian ma.haha.rather den to be with 2b2.lol.
was sitting with min den we listening to radio only.
e performance was okie lor.we were rather enthu.hahaha.
den ended earlier den expected.
den me n min sat in e bus listening to perfect 10 again.got 'e reason'.lol.as usual.i very worked up to hear that.ha lol.
he sms me siarh.asked if i was stil at e stadium.i a bit e shocked mann.heh.lol.
den i rushed home le.rather eat at home lor.some more stil got tuition ma.ms moo dun blif siarh.lol.
last nite he suddenly sms me siarh.first time he sms me on his own.i mean second la.first time was in april around 5plus.was a sch day.ha lol.den he told me he v bored siarh.lol.
den he called me.we talked for 30min 53sec.i didn stammer siarh.gee.lol.but he did.haha.but at least he finally apologised for wat he said previously.thou he tried to deny.but at least he tried to fake so that i wont be hurt.haha.
tue got hao xi kan le.lol.shant elaborate so much.hahaha.

guo *|a|a|a
11.26pm

monday.sian lor.went to big bookshop after sch w min jiahui nana weeboy n junrong.went to buy chris bdae prezzie.den after that went to mac to makan and fold stars.

tue morning rained.waited at umbrella area for mel.but she was late.so ended up 2c1 pple almost all came to join me.haha that was great.that bench would be e '2c1 rainy bench' le.haha.den after sch went to mac with mel to fold stars.talked so much crap.

wed rained again.den after pledge taking in class went for dnt lessons.mrs abdul take us siarh.nice one na.and so shiok mann.every wed go for dnt den can c e sec3s go for morning run.wat e.thats great mann.me n siti so happy abt it.den she kept hitting me.wat e.lol!..den after sch we stayed back in sch to talk cock lor.me mel min jiahui nana nicolle sini qimei...iya.lotsa them la.we had a great time crapping anw.oh ya.gave chris his prezzie.he better appreciate it.500 over stars in that bottle.so much sincerity.lol.not mine only thou.heh.

thur rained again!!..shiok siarh.supposed to be ncc day.but no need c them le.hahaha.history cher was mdm yahidah.nice cher currently.haha.lit cher was ms chua lor.horrible handwriting she has.almost like hock mann.bleahx.heh.but was a tired day anw.n ya.after sch went to mac to makan with e same peepz.including qimei.cos me n mel waiting for chris to go jp de.stupid him la.so late one siarh.den me n mel went first den took neoprints.so niceeyyy.find myself so shun yan siarh.haha lol.*winks* den he came and joined us for a while den went off to join yh they all le.great day anw.*grinz*

fri got macritchie run.meee got duty.heng mann.gee.mel min jiahui jiemin nana nicolle michelle sini min hui qimei jaslyn wen si oso got.we have got a great time dere.thou morning must wake up very early to prepare stuff.heh.den our class got 3 winners siarh.nice one na.keke.shawn got 3rd.shirley got 3rd too.limin got 1st!!!..we screamed so loud at e side when they got their trophies den everyone looked at us.so paiseh siarh.gee.anw.*huggies and kisses* to those who made an effort to take part in these run.and of cos pple who at least participated in e non competitive one.heh.den after that i so guai.nv go west mall with them.went home early.

wah.nice one na.nice week mann.but that was first week of sch ma.next wk onwards can die mann.so many tests coming up.but bo bian la.endure lor.heh.

guo // lala
11.58pm

didn mean to be vulgar.
but i really dunno wat to use to describe how i feel.
it is definitely heart breaking.


we cried.
we indeed have.
not all.
but those who knew e truth today.
no choice.
natural instinct ba.
watever.
miss moo.
we understand y you didn tell us that you're leaving.
but pls do come back to visit us.
we wil really miss you.
we wil miss your lessons always.
your laughter.
e joy you brought to us.
we cant do anything.
can only wish you all e best in your endeavours.
thanks for your great contributions to e class.
we really appreciated.
we really wanna apologise to you for not always creating troubles for you.
hope we aren too late to do so.
things may nv be e same anymore.
but we wil try to strive hard and not disappoint you.
we wil try to live up to our name.
we wil try.
perhaps when you come back to visit us you wil c e certs we have gotten on e notice board.
you wil c e fitness run trophy on e teacher's table.like you wished to have them that way.
you said we are independent.
you said we can oso make it w/o a classparent.
but thats all your credit.
thanks to all your 'un-biasness'.
it is definitely stupid if we tell you not to leave now.
so pls take care.
this is too sudden for us.
too big a blow for us.
so all we can say is.
good luck.
and take care.
we love you.
we miss you loads.

guo '2C1_04
7.47pm

wats there to be very sad abt?
life goes on anw.
wats more shes leaving to pursue her dreams.
we shouldn stop her.
instead we should be happy for her.
life nowadays is boring mann.
mon no sch.went to watch spiderman2 with nana min n jiahui.
took neoprints at lot1.
not nice one.my specs reflected by light.
but nvm la.no one look at me anw.lol.
tue was boring la.
wed same.anw have been staying back n stuff lor.
today stayed back to wait for siti.
.....n stuff.dun wish to elaborate too much abt today.
now at yuyuan hse.
borrow com.
headache mann.
jus now walked in e rain.
bo liao.
heh.gotta call class peepz up le.
tml wil be a pleasant day for 2c1.lol.

meili!!..my beloved ps.haha.thanks so much.thou you always like to tease me n yuyuan!!..lol.but those words you used to console me at e quadrangle jus now were enough.thanks so muchie.

miss moo agreed with me siarh!!..she said is a matter of time whether we have to part or not.heh.lol.jus now after music saw so many class.scary siarh.saw her.i almost fainted.heh.didn c him thou.lol.but anw.he stayed back jus now too.keke.

hey my beloved fellow pals in 2c1_04.whoever noes abt that thing le.dun too sad le la.except shawn thou.lol.jus joking.heh.anw we dun work hard jus for ms moo.but we do have to prove to her and other chers as well that we aren to be looked down on.

take care everyone.drink lotsa water uh. =)

guo '2C1_04
8.14pm

dunno who wil be our new classparent.
dun bother to care le.
anw is not within our control.
we dun have a choice anw.
heng den gd cher la.
sway den bad one la.
go think so much for wat?
now at kaixin hse.
borrowing com for my eng hw.
wat e mann.
so diff siarh.
no inspiration.
lol.
tml dun wan go sch can?
dun wan c him.
going deaf soon.
last nite went to seragoon sec campfire.
jiemin kept screaming at my ears.
nice one na.
siannnn la.
must go do hw le.
Zzzzz.

guo lala
1.39pm

haiz.
stress.
stress.
stress.
almost cried for e past two days.
but didn eventually.
gotta be strong.
thanks shirleen and mel.
haha.i wont go tiao lou dun worry.haha.
now at yuyuan's hse again.
borrow com again.
keke.
jus now jiemin and kin mun sick so went home le.
take care hor gals.
jus now math test so cham.
so many qns cant do.
hopefully can pass.
haiz.
i miss miss moo!!!!
haiz.
after school stayed at umbrella area.
thanks mann jocelyn.
i got a GREAT time w you talking back abt ahem.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
suang mann.
haha.
thanks so muchie.
i today so sad de lor.
but finally can at least fa xie yi xia to jocelyn.
hahaha.
den after that went to eat roti prata at e coffeeshop opp sch w meili jocelyn and chris lien.
they made me laugh so much mann.
thanks seniors.
i finally can laugh from e bottom of my heart today.
ha.
den took bus home w yuyuan.
phew.
finally can listen to some music le.
haha.
hmmm.
gotta go home le.
must makan dinner.
heh.
take care peepz out dere.
drink lotsa water.
=)

guo lala
6.10pm

today is so interesting!!!..keke.
morning went to sch at 7plus for e chinese competition thing.must go help out.nice one na.luan lao shi called so many pple to go le stil ask us.lol.
stupid specs.screw came off.den must change specs.so nerdy!!!..some more so giddy.heh.
den when almost reached sch le saw her.she was walking into sch.lucky mum drove me all e way into sch.so didn happen to meet her or watever le.heh.but saw bteng so walked into sch w her.
took off my specs when i walked into sch.otherwise so paiseh.so nerdy.heh.
den we put on our tie den led those diff pri schs to e hall.i mean.not me n shirley lead lor.so many pple dere.we slacking only.
e guides went for energy conservation course.i miss them badly.haiz.meili so gao xiao.said ti wo da bao bu ping.cos i let zenia and jinyan go den in e end they both cant turn up.haha.but is okie la.anw i think they didn expect it de.ooh wait.wheres my brasso?..should be stil w jiemin?..heh.
den me n shirley walked here walked dere.darn bo liao.
we walked to canteen dere den got a guy ask us where e toilet is.we pointed to him den he almost walked into e females toilet!!!!..me n shirley tried to hold back our laughter den we told him is beside.after he went in le shirley laughed like siao.hahaha.
den me n shirley played hp at umbrella area.nobody de.heh.only ncc guys.we played and talked and slept and stuff.lol.
i wanted to say morning to clement.but dun dare.dunno y.for 3 times i didn say.cos i dun dare.dunno y.haha lol.
den saw medwin and junxian.i finally dare to say hi to junxian le.but i think medwin tot i saying to him.gee.they came back play only.lol.
that chris xie uh.win liao lor.play vball til lie flat on e ground den hurt his hand.nice one na.so many e st john pple come help him bandage.like he said.v kua zang and looked like a dumpling.hahaha.
den ms toh came to chit chat w us.my god.she planned e new seating arrangement le.a girl wil sure sit w a guy.scarli i sit w my 'atm' ah ben again or maybe my 'maria' wee wee or 'beloved' ernie or 'yuanyuan' yytian!!..haha.dunno le.dun sit w zirui can le.i scared exams all flunk.hahaha.nola.he v nice de la.sure let me copy ans oso de.but sure bully me.keke.
den yingpeng and me went to nanyang girls to watch e second round of competition den receive e cert of participation.luan lao shi lent me 20bucks to take taxi and top up my card.now owe another person more money again le.haha.
den we watched e competition.was quite interesting.at least i didn doze off k.if i had den it must had been darn boring.gee.e host was lingzhi from 93.3fm.finally i saw her real person.heh.
den so sian lor i was sms-ing meili and chris lien.gee.
den after that went to west mall w wee wee n junrong.
i wanted to get my specs repaired.but dunno wil charge or not.junrong told me wont de.cos is only a screw.but i didn really blif him.cos everytime i repair specs quite ex de.gee.
so we 3 go test test.i went in den ask how much e person charge to screw e screw.dunno is it she c me ke lian or wat.said no need to charge de.gee.anw.i felt so suang w my own original specs.not nerdy and comfortable.gee.
was walking here n dere up n down den was at watsons looking at some boxes.den saw jocelyn n chris lien.so qiao!!!..omg.we so got yuan fen.hahaha.
den actually i was helping wee wee hold his ncc uni de.den he saw chris lien he quickly took back.he really v scared of her.cos that time he took away my bag den kana lectured by meili n chris lien.hahahahahahahahahaha.den chris lien even sms me to tell me to tell wee wee n junrong that she didn mean any harm de.so darn funny.haha.
den wee wee n junrong treated me to popcorn chicken at kfc.saw e sean from badminton.they whole group looking at us.as if we were aliens.heh.lol.
we wanted to buy hp chains de.but cant find those that are shun yan.so went home le.
den reached home le talked to chris for a while.
today no great occasion or watever lor.but sooooo HIGH today.i kept laughing.dunno for wat.but i m definitely laughing from e bottom of my heart.
cos i noe i m being cared.concerned.loved.by pple around me.lotsa them.*grinz* =)

meili: qing ai de ps!!..hmmm.for e past 2days stayed back in sch w you n chris lien n jocelyn i really so happy.thanks!!..dun worry.to me.you're really a v great ps.ooh yea.dun you worry le.i warned chris xie le.he told me he wont say you suck anymore le.he will say 'meili rawks'.gee.dun worry.i make sure he does it.hahaha.anw.thanks for being dere these days!!!..take care too yea?..cya.drink lotsa water!!..*huggies* =)

chris lien: christine uh!!..haha.thou you may seem blur blur de.but i noe your specs v thick de la.so you v observant de lor.bleahx.was really observant n nice of you to realise that actually i have not been happy these days.but your jokes and laughter sure have made me laugh loads these days.thanks so muchie!!..cya in sch soon yea?..drink lotsa water!..heh.take care!..*huggies* =)

jocelyn: jocelynnnnnnnn!!!..hmmm.like meili n chris lien.you're more of a fren den senior to me!!..but of cos not that i dun respect you.but i really can click well w you pple!!..and you're definitely a v gd fren!!..thats y i so nice share w you my 'secret' rite?..gee.anw.thanks for listening to me after sch on thu n fri.keke.and most imptly.thanks for talking bad abt 'someone' that time.it was really great!!!..suang mann.gee.anw.really thanks so muchie.drink lotsa water!!..take care!!..*huggies* =)

kianwee: weeboy cum maria!!..keke.thanks for staying back almost everyday w junrong to wait for me to go home.i noe i slow la.always drag drag drag.den make you cant go home w 'her'.sorry la.gee.but jiayou!..i blif 1day you can jio dao her de.keke.anw.like you say.you gonna prove me wrong.aren you?..i shall wait n c.haha.thanks for e popcorn chicken today!..i noe is part of your savings for her la.heh.next time i got money blanja you lor.keke.anw you're really such a great fren.psst.lucky fri you held on to me.otherwise if i paralysed you die uh!!..hahaha.drink lotsa water!!..take care!!..*huggies* =)

junrong: jr uh.hmmm.thanks too.cos you wait w weeboy for me to go home.thanks for e popcorn chicken hor.gee.but i dunno wats up w you n weeboy these days mann.you both rather wait for me oso dun dare follow 'her' n 'her' go home.i mean your 'her' and wee's 'her' lor.gee.anw uh.thanks so muchie la.i so gan dong lor.i noe you 2 sure think i v tom boy one la.so always hang out w you 2.but i must say uh.i really nv regret noeing both of you la.cos you 2 are really my v best frens.*winks*..okie.you can dun treat me as 1 thou.haha.but anw.you oso must persist hor.i blif she MIGHT consider you de.haha.jiayou yea?..drink lotsa water!..take care!..*huggies* =)

guo |a|a|a
8.20pm

yesterday went to 4mosques.was an exursion cum activity or watever in conjunction w e racial harmony day.shant elaborate much on it.cos was all jus mosques lor.thou we learnt quite a few new stuff abt e muslims.best part was that dere was a buffet lunch prepared specially for us at e last mosque!!..so suang!!..we all so happy.esp me n yinghao.big eaters.keke.
after that me n limin n weisheng went to mac to makan.we each ate 10pcs of nuggets.gee.but that was only jus rite.we wanted to eat more.but den gotta go home le.was rather late.den yuyuan sent me home.
today got new seating arrangement le.
i sat w shirley!!..gee.we are one of e lucky pairs of girls to sit tog besides kinmun n huiting.keke.but i sit dere v cham siarh.must tilt my head so much to look at e board.but tsu hui n wee sit in front of me.den stheng n yuyuan sit behind me.den ben n amirah sit beside shirley so stil v near me.so suang.gee.but too bad!!..i dun get to sit w ernie.gee.lol. =x
stupid one siarh.i sit dere keep knocking my head against e window pane.now my head stil so pain.*ouchie*..lol.heh.
today got guides mann.nice 1 na.i first time late for uniform parade!!..lol.so got pumped 25.den my back painful like siao.but heck la.i was stil laughing away.cos i tot of jinyan!!..haha.she gao xiao la.we went to change den she told me stil early thats y we both late.not blaming her thou.jus v darn funny.others c me jus laugh n laugh.
yeppies!!..i passed silver le.*winks*..must aim for gold.a bit stressed thou.heh.
den we got sing song la.thou many songs i dunno e actions de.but jus now anyhow follow so now noe le.haha.
after guides 1 group of us went to mac to makan.i shared e coupon w meili n jocelyn.actually that coupon was yesterday me n limin used de.but that person nv took it.so i used it again.gee.nice 1 na!..haha.
my god.i wrote so much crap for e chinese report thing.wat sec sch relationships de.i said is not encouraged siarh.lol!..=x..some more said is normal to have crushes at this age.gee.
i m much happier these days le.jus troubled over minor stuff.but i guess i wil jus keep it to myself.shall jus get over it soon.nothing much anw.no big deal.ha.

meili: my beloved ps!!..haha okie.your hair must be standing le.haha.thanks for accompanying me to mac jus now.i stil owe you 1.50 hor.haha.anw.thanks so much for not minding to give me 'weekly tuition'.haha.anw.must take care okie?..drink lotsa water!!..cya!!..*huggies* =)

chris lien: christine!!..hmmm.scare me siarh.i tot you angry today.haha.anw uh.if you ever need panadols if you got headache.jus let me noe okie?..i got strawberry flavour de.gee.my whole class noes that leh.gee.dun worry.of cos i m some1 who wil care for you!..cos you are my senior cum gd fren ma!..drink lotsa water n rest well!..take care!..*huggies* =)

jocelyn: yo jocelyn!!..haha you smart girl.jus now you sure can interprete wat i typed to you on my hp rite??..keke lol.haha anw.actually i think you are e first to c that i m troubled.haha.some frens around me dun even realiz that wor.haha.is okie thou.n yea.i always jus feel so secure to confide in you.you are sooooo niceeyyy!!..haha.anw.you oso can jus feel free to tell me anything okie??..jus drop me a sms or call me up.*winks*..haha.take care yea?..drink lotsa water!!..take care!..*huggies* =)

limin: hey daughter!!..sick uh?..c la!..i expected you wont come to sch today!!..isn your papa smart?..keke.but uh.must rest well hor.today's pe lesson you not here we scored so many times.keke.but i bu xi guan siarh.haha.n i missed your laughter so much mann.haha.drink lotsa water yea?..take care!..*huggies* =)

shirleen: heyyyy gal!!..haha.got cough rite??..dun eat so much dry n cold stuff le uh.haha.drink lotsa water!!..take good care!!..*huggies* =)

guo |a|a|a
8.52pm

now at sther hse.
bo liao eh.
borrow com ba le.
lolz.
nothing better to do in other words.
she give me eat cheescake.
yummie.
keke.
as usual.
listening to e reason.
afterall this song stil affects my mood.
n i seem to be not able to not listen to this song everyday.
dunno y.
haiz.
since dunno which day.
he walked past me 6times n we jus looked away.
since sch reopened after e june hols.
every morning i walked to sch.
i sure looked to my left when i walked past e void deck.
but he's nv dere anymore.
he wil only reach sch 6min later after i stepped into e sch.
it has always been like that.
haiz.

guo lala
4.35pm

1. love is when i feel disappointed n uneasy when i dun c him.

2. love is when i lie that i dun like him when in actual fact i do.

3. love is when i like e things he fancies.

4. love is when i find all kinds of excuses to msg him.

5. love is when i always keep a lookout for him everywhere.

6. love is when i get emotional when i listen to e song he likes.

7. love is when i start to lie when i noe other gals like him.

8. love is when i dun care abt watever bad stuff pple say abt him.

9. love is when i hate it when he doesn even say hi to me.

10. love is when i get sad when his msgs are short n sarcastic.

guo lala
5.12pm

long time nv surf net le..despo siarh..keke..now at sther hse..jus now went to sch..den went shopping at jp ntuc with sther hl weeboy and yoke hwee..stupid yoke hwee..go throw a box of men underwear into my trolley..den when i put it back..2boxes dropped..den pple all looked at me..so malu!!!..toopid de la..lolz..anw..they are here at sther hse too..including..chris and clement..

well..nothing much to blog abt..cos rather 'speechless'..lolz..=x..

jus now they kept saying my face red..got meh..but i went to toilet to check..rather lor..=x..heh..

anw..days are boring nowadays..

and yea..i realized something..i m only his tv..an entertainer..lolz.....

and oso..i noe e truth le..lolz......

and oso..a fren betrayed my trust..a best fren some more..wat have i got to say??..guess i can only stop trusting pple around me..yes thats it.....

dun say i attitude le..i have a reason for that..deres a reason behind everything.....

kk..must go sample ice cream le..yummies..gee..

jus wanna leave down some msgs for some pple..=)

chris xie : hey my 'good fren'..haha..thanks so muchie for e past few days..i think only you noe i cried on mon and y i did..haha..thanks uh..i owe you hersheys okie??..haha..but i wil only buy for you when you c this..cos i doubt you wil..hahahaha..okie..thanks loads..do FIGHT FOR YOUR OWN RITES!!!..haha..you noe wat i mean la..take care uh..

meili: hey my dear ps..thanks so much for helping me in so many areas..in fact..in every area..haha..now i have a very 'specialised math tutor' and i have more confidence le yea??..haha..thanks for always dropping by here to be updated of stuff abt me..thanks..take care hor..

ernie: beloved!!!..haha..thanks for your counselling session that day..i guess you noe wats going on but you jus kept quiet..haha..thanks anw..take care uh..dun miss me!!..=p

shirleen: shirleen!!!..take care hor!!..come on..i noe you in e same plight as me..but yea..stay happy okie??..take care..=)

frens out dere..i do noe that you all care..thanks..take care yea?.. *winks*..gee..

guo lalala
1.37pm

hmmm..i dun wanna say much..got nothing to say..jus history repeating itself again..so i m used to it..dun wanna elaborate further..anw..e other time was my frens dun wan tell me..now e same..so y stil bother??..anw..if they have e intention to hide it from me..they can do it..so even if i noe oso doesn matter le..yea..i have got lotsa qns to ask her..loads and tonnes of them..but since she noe le..wats e point??..i guess is useless..swee asked if i was sad..can i say no?..yes perhaps i could..but who wil blif that is how i feel?..wil anyone blif?..well..heck le..it doesn matter anymore..if i were really that sad..my tears would have taken my unhappiness away on mon le..

i dunno if i should delete 'e reason' away from my songlist..
keep?..delete?..//shrugs.

how to face her on mon and e rest of e days?..is her again..i can accept this fact..but..how to face her??..//shrugs.

i guess i wil nv add back his no. le..never..

guo - //sad.
8.06pm

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you