if you come back .......

yeppies..finally get to listen to jielun new song in full version le..keke..e mv oso not bad..everytime when i tune in to e music station..only can hear..'da jia hao..wo shi zhou jielun........!@#$%"..not vulgar thou..haha..but now finally can hear full version le..very niceeyy..gee..

oh yea..wil be online nowadays cos com finally repair hao le..*grins*..gee..or perhaps only can use on weekends..okies..got alot of homework haven finished..heh..slacking rite now mann..heh..

well..i aint that sad afterall..shows that i m numb le..proves that i m afterall a rather emotionally strong person??..haha..yea perhaps i m..self praise..keke..*winks*..hahaha..since i have made a decision..and that is my best fren..i have decided to accept this fact..and TRY to treat my that best fren like usual yea??..and like i say..if i were really that sad..my tears would have taken my unhappiness on mon..so nothing is left..

yesterday had a great time at sther hse with sther herself huiling wee wee and yoke hwee..thanks buds..haha..so must learn to appreciate all e good times i have with my frens..=//..bleahx..wat talking me?..lolz..

guy sebastian de angels brought me here darn niceeyyy mann..heh..well..talking abt that..til now i stil dunno whether to continue listening to e reason..=x..//shrugs..c first..

yeppies..having steamboat for dinner later..darn hungry mann..haven eaten lunch today..heh..

chris lien: yo chris lien!!..haha..now you have the special honour and piority le..bleahx..gee..hmmm..thanks for always dropping by thou you dun leave tags here..haha..but thanks anw..and yea..today shared so many secrets with you..i so gan dong..haha..anw..must have more confidence in yourself okies??..and yea..dun worry..i m not unhappy le..haha..take care..*huggies*..=)

haiz..
dunno wat to do..
i m confused..
haiz..

guo lala
10.15pm

*ouch*
backache mann..
jus now enrichment class sit too upright le..lolz..
den after that guides got footdrill..worse..lolz..
but overall was stil okies..
jus that he was dere..
a bit distracting..
lolz..=x..
backache til now..
tml got e music thingy..
haven done anything to it..
heck le..lolz..

guo lalala
9.45pm

he jus told me that..
i dunno y..
he found out something or wateva?
dunno..
but y..
haiz..
dunno..
i so confused le..
jus now stil okies de wat..
y he sudd go say that..
wat did i do..
haiz..
suan le..
i dun wan think abt it..
waste my brain memory..

stayed back to do deco for class for tml..

haiz..forget it..

totally dunno wat to write..

on my way back in e bus..

i was thinking wat to write for today..

but now..

totally no mood to do so..

chris lien take care hor..get well soon..

meili hope you like e balloon..

jocelyn too..

and yea..py..i guess to whom e balloon is for..haha..anw..hope you liked it..

and to all those pple whom i have given balloons to..qimei..wenspacesi..minhui..more and more..whoever..hope you all like it..

mel i stil owe you one..hopefully i rmb..lolz..

guo lalala
10.14pm
sign out ba..haiz..

today e celebration definitely dun have any national day de qi fen..lolz..early in e morning woke up to buy ice..6bucks siarh..heh..den went to sch with e ice..well..obviously in a car?..lolz..

after e nd msg and watever blah blah blah..we got into e classroom to tend our stall..well..i didn do anything much..really didn..thou i was one of e oic..sorry pple..sorry stheng and sther esp..i noe we 3 are e oic and i did nothing at all..i m sorry..i aint feeling good today..that isn a good excuse thou..but sorry..

min and i jus walked here and dere..i saw my ouxianggg many times but didn dare to open my mouth to ask him take pic with me..lolz..but eventually managed to..cos chris was dere..so not so scared ba..lolz..den took with him and chris and min..e saddest pic ever taken..lolz..shant elaborate..okies..anw..toopid de siarh!!..min and i wanted to take pic with leonard den he dun wan..some more run away..lolz..too bad lor..haiz..den took with junxian oso..strange siarh..he said wan to take with us de neh..lolz..

chris and ouxianggg dye their hair that colour..my god..nvm..later kana hoot den i die..lolz..=x..so anw me and min walked here and dere..too bo liao..my god..boon keat said hi to me!!!!!!!!..o.M.g..i so ji dong..lolz..=x..and yea..luan lao shi postponed e chinese test..heng mann..heh..cos i nv study much..lolz..

he was standing outside e class all along..well..quite long..perhaps looking at her..who noes..perhaps..lolz....

i was busy giving out balloons..to many many pple..toopid ouxianggg..i gave him den he jus like that 'i dun wan' den run..wasted my time go write his name on it..lolz..sheena burst it anw..lolz..chris de worse siarh..i was writing his name on it den halfway e balloon burst..lolz..so in e end i gave him a balloon with 'you suck' on it..den he dun wan so gave to clement..lolz..he let out e air anw..lolz..

cleared everything le..den was at umbrella area dere taking 'back view' de photos..lolz..den went to mac with mel..saw shawn and ernie..

den went to je..saw yoke hwee chris junyang they all at ice skating rink..didn noe chris so pro de..lolz..den yoke hwee too sian..so went to library with us..stheng sther min wee were dere..jiahui and yingpeng joined us..

gao xiao one lor..we were at one corner crapping..den yingpeng was putting her fish on e floor..e fishes were in a cup thou..den we talked crap and stuff..den dunno who go spill e cup of fishes..e fishes jump jump jump..funny siarh..they quickly picked up e fishes and threw back into e cup..den e librarian walked past den we all pretended to do our own stuff..me and min wanted to laugh..but we jus held back our laughter..lolz..we fake fake down dere listening to discman..lolz..den e librarian walked away le we laughed..den e cup spilled again..funny mann..den threw back into e cup again..yoke hwee and wee wee de pants were wet..lolz..den we quickly ran to other places..

after that went to sther hse..me stheng wee and yoke hwee..den i..jus suddenly mood swing..upon seeing some msgs..haiz..nvm..anw we jus did watever we could..listen to music..use com..watch tv..watever..sorry anw..i didn mean to show attitude jus now..i wanted to cry..but i cant..

chris and hl oso went a while..den i went off with stheng and wee first..

i really really really really really feel very bad now..i dunno y..i aint lying to myself..only to him..y did he say that..i feel so bad..y must i appear happy..act as if nothing happened jus now..but can i not?..shes my best fren..but..haiz..sther said he was rite..i m lying to myself..but i aint wat..i m only lying to him..since when have i lied to myself??..watever..

listening to 'w/o you'..i feel more like crying le..sad song okies..dunno..things that could make me happy today is only that fish incident and boon keat saying hi to me..lolz..but i m certainly more of unhappy okies..but so wat?..life goes on..

"tell me..how m i supposed to live my life..w/o you?"

guo
8.13pm

Never even thought to cry
When I heard you say goodbye
Never said where you were going

There's no laughter in the air
Only silence everywhere
And so much left unspoken

Since you've been gone
I haven't been the same
I wish that i could see
Who's to blame

Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
And No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am i supposed to live my life?
Without you

Was I lost in you and me
To the point i couldn't see
That what we had was dying

Now it's all that I can do
To see photographs of you
And stop myself from crying

I should learn to live without your love
Got so many memories
But it's not enough

Without you, where do i belong?
Without you, how can i go on?
And No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you?

I feel helpless and, oh, so all alone
Like I've never felt before
You made me feel alive
But I don't remember what it's like anymore

Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
And No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you?

Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you?

Oh baby where do I belong?
Please tell me how can I go on?
Without you...

perhaps i m really a detestable and irritating freak or watsoever..
otherwise some pple wouldn keep leaving tags and being so sarcastic to me..but..wat else have i got to say??..jus shut up and ignore lor..

life is boring for me today..

nothing to say..nothing to write..

trying to be myself..trying to..

guo
8.32pm

i sure suck in that pic..lolz..
another boring day today..
should be going out with shirleen and kx on tue..
hope can..
dunno..
cant blif i was giving him advice last nite..
telling him how to win her heart?..//shrugs..
today..told her to consider him..
but she dun wan..
but i cant be always giving him advice all e time yea?
//shrugs..




tired...


guo
2.39pm

guess i shouldn be so demanding anymore..
i m happy with wat i have now..
e current stuff i possess are enough..
i ask for nothing more..





1h 4 min 43 sec..=)..



chris lien: hey gal..thanks for so much for listening to me over e past few days..i really appreciate that..but anw..you can always call me up or sms me if you ever need a listening ear yea??..pls do take care..like you always tell me to take lotsa care..=)..

py: heyyyy yo..haha..hmmm..thanks soooooooo much for *ahem*'s number and email and pic..hahahahahahaha..so happy abt that..really thanks so muchieeeee..gee..take care yea?..=)..

jus took my shower..
they jus went home..
first time played til so late..
lolz..
they can really eat mann..
ate dunno how many bowls of rice..
lolz..
hmmm..
yea..

y did this happen again..
i hate it..
really hate it..
it wil only tell me no one wil stand on my side..
it wil only tell me i m wrong again..
i tried to help..
but to no avail..
was it really my fault?
//shrugs..




limin: sorry..

guo
8.38pm

my dear bro jun rong..lolz..

HAPPY B'DAY

you definitely have e honour to have your name appear here cos you are someone really special..and i hope we can be best frens forever yea?..thanks for standing by your jie when i needed a bro..=)))..pursue your dreams and aim for your goals yea?..gonna give you only belated prezzie okies??..sorry abt that..take care hor..and yea..fight for your own rites..you noe wat i mean..smile loads..=))..

you make me despise you!..you noe who you are..stop doing lame stuff..

lolz..is finally a fri..can sleep..lolz..
today went home late mann..do brochure..do banner..
today didn feel so sleepy during lessons like usual..
mayb bcos e sweets kept me awake ba..haha..
den after sch stayed back do brochure and banner..
he was dere..
should be waiting for her..
lolz..
anw..finished everything late..
but had an enjoyable time..
cos kept singing..=x..lolz..
contributed to e noise in sch..lolz..=x..
den went to mac with mel..
den took bus with chris..cos he going his cuz hse..
den reached home use com le..
hmmm..
i was really contented that day..
very very very happy..
really very happy..
so i ask for nothing more..
=)

guo loves duncan
8.27pm

got 4msgs..but didn reply..same person..same content..nothing that surprises me..i didn wan to ignore..i have no choice..but too bad..eventually i replied..like wat mel and chris said..sorry abt that..but you pple noe me..i wil de..haiz..but perhaps i was only being dumb..e msgs rarely consist of 'you' but only 'her' or 'she' and 'haiz'..but dunno y..jus felt that replying was part of my responsibility..i cant possibly be a wet blanket..never..dere wil be misunderstandings if i ever be one..but he nv noe how i feel..

in e end..deleted his no again..that time added back cos expected that my fone wil somehow b seen by him so jus added in case he suspect..but now..deleted again..cos if i dun..i cant stop myself from msging him..perhaps thats being dumb..but is all that i can do..jus hope i wouldn get e chance to add it back again..shrugs..

jie..dun sad le..i noe you are confused..but..this kinda stuff..you have to make a decision no matter wat..if you wanna cry..i hope you would only cry for one person..e choice is yours..but..one person wil be fair enough..if you ever need a listening ear..pls do call me up..i wil be here..pls dun cry..cos i dun wan to c you cry..dun wan to noe that you cry..cos e images of my jie..are always cheerful..happy..and funny..and even lame..but i hope these images always stay in my mind..okies??..you are my moral support when i m feeling down..so pls dun feel sad okies?..or i wil be v lost de..but even if you are sad..you can always turn to me..cos i hope to be a mei who can share your sorrows..pls take care..and smile loads..=)..

went to sch in e morning at 7 30plus..
saw chris..wasn earlier den him..wasn later too..lolz..
bought 2 m&m crispy de..yummies..
yp was already in sch when i reached..
meddled w e banner..
he was dere..
but he went to sch jus to c her..
definitely heart breaking..
but only pretended that i didn c a thing..
wat else can i say anw..
mayb she indirecly benefited me..
he was dere to c her..
so i could c.....
well..nvm..
anw..after so long..today first time we nv msg..
in fact..last nite sent last msg le..haa..
today onwards wont send le..
hmmm..well..nvm..
saw ms moo..she sponsor 20bucks for paint..niceeeyy of her..
got math remedial..
jus as boring..
was crapping and singing w min..
and exchanging phone to c msgs..
at least i always c 'happiness' or 'joy' in her msgs..
not mine definitely..
even min herself thinks that i m torturing myself..
dunno if is true..
shrugs..
11 got break..10min break..
went downstairs..saw him again..but guess it wouldn be possible for us to say even hi le..
was running around w min..crap mann..lolz..
perhaps was hoping to c at least his shadow while moving my eyeballs to my left or right while pretending to play w min..
den went back to cls..got bee outside e window..den min and i keep siam-ing here and dere..lolz..=x..jus kept singing too..heh..
karina released us early..
went downstairs..
dunno if is intentional to walk to e canteen..heh..
jus walked past..he didn bother to say hi..expected ba..
boon keat said hi to me!!!!!!!!!..shiok..gee..lolz..=x..
yp amirah jiemin zirui ws wee zhuangwei they all go buy rice den some go my hse first..
went to je w hl and yh..we were really fast..reached clementi so soon..bought only paint..
after that went to mac..saw..
yea..saw..
after that wanted to run for e bus..but decided not to..
went back to mac..
pple sure think we sot..lolz..=x..
den went to take bus again..
did e banner..
managed to almost finish it..
we had great funnn..kept laughing..
cos dun wan to not laugh..
dun wan to let them think that i m not happy..
at least i noe how to act..
den after that went to playground w jiemin hl and zirui..
they went too..didn really talk thou..didn mean to neglect..
didn have e intention to play at all..
but cos we dun talk le..
jus hope to c since is stil possible..
who noes..
we may nv get to go out le..be it a group or watever..
den they went home..
all i can do is to say bye..
not to him thou..
but only when e figure gradually disappeared..
softly..i murmured to myself..'bye..'
wasn happy..
but i could think of tue..
that wil be enough..

" ---- " - noe you wont be reading this..but anw..guess i was really bad enough to send you that msg yest..didn mean to..but if your bill exceed again..if your phone kana confiscated..you cant msg her le..den you'll be saying 'haiz' again..i really hate it when you say that mann..haa..lolz..=x..sorry abt that..cant be your advisor le..lolz..=x..and cant encourage you to jio her le..but anw..i blif you noe that i wil support you de..since i have always been encouraging you to jio her..dun worry la..have some faith in yourself..you can win her heart de..*winks*..jiayou!!..take care..=)..

kaixinnn - jie uh..so glad that your mood is back..haa..dun need xie wo le..but anw i was surprised that you read my entry so soon..den some more left such a long tag..haha..anw..happy for you that you made up your mind..ni hui xing fu de!!..*grins*..take care hor..=)..

okies..gonna miss hoobastank le..but no use even if i can go..i only listen to that song..only think of .... haa..

guo * m i s s e s y o u
7.10pm

now it's all that i can do..
to c photographs of you..
and stop myself from crying..

w/o you..where do i belong?

today is another slacking day okies..
1plus left hse to clementi..
met shirleen to go 'walk walk'..lolz..
went to big bookshop walk here and dere..
was bo liao..but we talked loads..lolz..
den went to comics connection..
bought a fishbone hp chain..niceeyyy..shirleen chose de..we each got one..another symbol of frenship on my hp..lolz..
den went to mac to makan..den stayed dere for quite long..we jus talk crap..but was enjoyable..=)..
den she went home le den i went to kaixin hse..
borrowed com..den we crap so much and kept looking at other pple frenster stuff..lolz..

really dun wanna use 'haha' anymore..
dun wanna use 'lolz' anymore..
i really dun mean it..
wats e point of saying 'haha' and 'lolz' to pple when i dun feel that way?..y m i doing that?
i hope i aint wat huimin or sther said..
torturing myself..
at least i dun sense it okies..
but i jus feel a 'miserabl-ity' inside me..
a v bad feeling that i cant describe..
a feeling that definitely cannot be described w words..
as if i really gonna cry anytime..
but i wont..
but y did he say that to me sudd..
is jus another blow..
gotta use e pic chris gave me again le..

jus dropped by gehui blog..saw e lyrics of that song..
seemed to be appearing everywhere..haiz.....

dun even have a song to keep in that special place of my memory le..no more..yea..no more..

guo
8.49pm

shirleen: thanks for pei-ing me today gal..thanks so muchie..dun feel any better thou..but definitely get to breathe 'fresher air' today by hanging out w you..=)..i dunno how to express myself..but anw..thanks..take care..=)..

kaixin: jie..glad to c that you are grining so much today le..and i definitely miss that smile..continue to smile loads..=)..and thanks for letting me use your com today uh..haha..my com surprisingly working again..phew..anw..take care..=)..

chris lien: heyyy gal..thanks so much for listening to me for e past few days..could have 'fallen' if you hadn tried to talk to me..really appreciated that..pls talk to me if you got any probs too..take care hor..=)..

Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the
operating room. Almost immediately She said: "How is my little boy?Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?"

The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy
didn't make it." Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer?
Doesn't God care anymore? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?" The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university."

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said goodbye to her
son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair.
"Would you like a lock of his hair?" the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and
handed it to Sally.

The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the
University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. "I said no at first, but Jimmy said, "Mom, I won't be using it after I die.
Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom."

She went on, "My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of
someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could." Sally walked out of Children's mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car. The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room. She started placing the model cars and other personal things, back in his room exactly where he had always kept
them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried
herself to sleep. It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Lying
beside her on the bed was a folded letter.

The letter said:
Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will
ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to
say I LOVE YOU. I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room, and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, y'know.

"Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place.
Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you goodbye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed.

"Well, y'know what Mom? God handed me some paper and His own
personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him- 'Where was He when I needed him?'

God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children "Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written
except you." To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great. Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore.

The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain
anymore... and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either.
That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was Special Delivery! How about that?

Signed with Love from: God, Jesus & Me.

jus now went to kfc w lyn yh n weis..
yh treated us..niceyyyy of him..
have been having free lunch these days..
thanks uh pple..
hmmm..i dunno wats up..
and since i asked le..
no one wans to tell me..
i dun bother to ask le..
if they blame me..for liking someone who likes her..
i got nothing to say..

guo
9.36pm

wtf..in terrible mood rite now..
dun wanna say too much le..
jus wanna find someone to scold..
!@#$%^&*()_+

change mood...

okies..thats lame..but i dun wish to always be pek cek all e time..jus now went to yuyuan hse w ben..den we only laugh laugh laugh..lolz..den went home..saw e phone bill..win le lor..sure die na..but i this month really nv use that much lor..wth..den mum of cos scold lor..den went back to sch..min told me he was stil in sch..lolz..bought twix again..have been eating that for e past few days..saw lyn amirah hl jiemin and other peepz..went off w hl and chris eventually..went to e coffeeshop at my hse dere to eat dinner..den i went home..late le..but must study lit!!!..wth..sian mann..haiz..now stil must do e sci research thingy..kao..sat got guides..after that must go out w sther they all..dun think wil be going..haiz..gdbye my phone..wil be seeing you til sat only..*muAcks*..lolz..haiz...

guo
7.54pm

today is a cold day okies..
and as usual..
i slept thru almost all e lessons..
tired mann..
after sch got test..
invigilator was eugene tan again..
so min of cos happy again le..
lolz..
junrong..dun be jealous if you're reading this..
thou i noe you wil stil be..
lolz..
test was stil quite okies..
at least not as diff like last time ms tan set de le..
much more relaxing le..heh..
after that went to refill water..
dun c him..
maybe he's at audition..
wont watch anw..
so went to jp with lyn and wee..
saw mel..
lyn and wee treated pizza hut..
so i got another free lunch again today..
lolz..=x..
v bloated le..
thanks buds..
wil treat your some day..
lolz..
tml got guides..
haven study poem..
lolz..
sorry sther..cant join you pple tml..both yrs your big day i dou bu zai..so sorry..but anw..enjoy hor..

guo
7.51pm

happy bday in 1day advance sther..
sorry to be a spoilsport today..
didn join you pple in e fun..
but anw i guess i aint needed..
not that i trying to be sarcastic thou..
anw..happy bday..best wishes for e yr..

jus reached home..
finally took my shower..
sian mann..sian day..
haiz..

morning had guides..
met mel min jh nana nicolle at same place at 7..
went to mac for breakfast..
shared breakfast w mel..
got nomination for leaders..
dun wish to elaborate..
footdrill was bad..
had many pumpings..
almost couldn tahan..
performance was bad anw..
distracted?..well..hope not..supposedly not..dun think so..
got lectured by seniors and ex seniors..
time to reflect?..yea..
dismissed early today..
went to look for kaili and geraldine w nana..
told them watever we kept inside us for so long..
bTh le..finally can say out le..
yeppies..lolz..
but they were rite la..
jus bear w it lor..
nothing much anw..
hmmm..shall think abt it..

den went off to jp w mel..
went to many places to decide wat to eat..
eventually we both said tog..
'or you wan go food court eat?'..
funny leh..we both said tog at e same time mann..cool..
den we shared our meal again..fish and chips..
den we bought a drink..shared again..
kept sharing cos we were both broke..heh..
den after that saw yh they all..
going seoul garden..
so joined them for a while..
didn eat thou cos we were both bloated..
took trading cards..niceeyyyy..grins..
but saw qx neocard on e screen..scary..lolz..
den went around..window shopping..
after that shared popcorn again..
sweet de..yummies..grins..
we brought it into seoul garden..
funny leh..we almost finished e whole carton le den e person came to us and said..'i guess i have to inform you that outside food is not allowed here..'
so mel and i huan lo..ate almost gonna finish le den went out..
mel went off w nana and nini..i didn..
went up to find him..
but he was w other 2guys..
so didn dare to talk to him..
said hi to boon keat!!!..lolz..=x..
was abt to go off den told him yh going..
he didn really bother..jus asked if i was going..
i jus went off after saying yea..
was walking out..making way dere le..
he sudd ran out and called my name..
after knowing him for 5mths 18days..
today third time hear him call me by name..lolz..
thou he was stil asking abt her..
i m contented enough..
he didn go eventually..
but i didn enjoy myself dere..
how to?..could only feel 'coldness'..
when yet i oso dunno e reason..
cos no one bothered to tell me..
when i did bother to ask..

made my way to mrt station..
he walking dere too at e same time..
but too bad dere were 2trains..
guess we took diff ones..
i took e rite..
so he must have taken e left..
meant to b like that..

went to campfire w nana they all..
but was a sian one..=x..
thou i wasn enthu at all..
bad headache mann..
cant liven myself up at all..
he msg me..
i tried to reply..
but kana scolded..
cos kept taking out hp..
haiz..
so i didn reply..
den he asked me if i got receive his msg..
but in actual fact..
our msgs all consist of her only..
he said wont msg her le..
but i blif he wil de..
so all i can do is to give support..lolz..
got back to clementi in huixin dad car..
ate 6mcnuggets and a mcspicy double..
stil a bit hungry..
but must control..lolz..
Zzzzzz...

guo
11.26pm

mel : heyyyy mel..sorry to leave you alone today..i m very very very sorry..i noe thats v selfish of me..and wats more when i left you..dere were no 'results'..i m truly sorry..i give you my word..i wont do that to you anymore..sorry..take care..thanks for taking e trading cards w me today..i m happy enough..thanks..=)..

junrong : heyyyy bro..thanks for e coke you kept offering me today..haha..quenched my thirst loads..lolz!!..hope you enjoyed yourself today..well..esp when she sat opp you at seoul garden today..hahaha..take care uh..=)..

yoke hwee aka yh aka yu hui : lolz..thanks for 'pitying' me..haha..but den i really aint torturing myself..thanks for any advice that you have given me..if you have really given me any..haha..you better spend more time coaxing *ahem*..hahaha..okies..take care uh..=)..

you make me feel so pressurized..
i noe she means alot to you..
but can you put yourself in my shoes?
you noe how i feel?

guo * h a t e s h e r s e l f
6.28pm

well..
dunno wat to say..
jus feeling radiant..
hahaha..lolz..
okies..
today didn feel sleepy during lessons at all..
heh..
chinese was okies..
that toopid mini test..
didn study..
didn even noe got test..=x..
pe lesson was okies..mr ng took us..
min go and hit my face w e ball..*ouch..lolz..
had some arguments..but should be okies..heh..
ms toh didn come..eugene tan came in again..
min first reaction was to open her mouth big big..wahahaha..
den ms koo took over..
den kept laughing w stheng yuyuan and siti..
yuyuan was e joke of e day..
made me laugh non stop..
i laughed til i knocked my head against e wall..
lolz!!..hahahaha..
math wasn really boring..
was sms-ing jr..poor thing..
eng lesson went to lab..shiok..heh..
after lunch got math remedial..
crapping w min..hahaha..
after that was doing work at umbrella area w sther siti limin..
den waited alone til 530 for jr and wee to b dismissed..
boon keat said bye to me when he went home!!!!!!
he suddenly said bye to me when i didn even look at me!!!
cool!!!!
keke..yh you must be laughing when you c this..
wahahaha..
went to mac to makan after that..
shiok..today was great..not sleepy at all de..
some more miraculously i finished much homework in sch..
first time neh..hahaha..

guo * l o v e s h e r s e l f
-grins- =)))))
8.57pm

jr: heyyy my dear bro..dun think so much abt it..i noe you must b v confused now..but dun worry too much le..this kinda stuff..hmmm..jus wait patiently for a result okies??..can always call me up when you wan to talk to someone okies?..take care!!..hope to c you smile okies??..=))..

siti: heyyy gal..hmmm..after noeing you for so long..and after having so many misunderstandings w you..today was e second time you took e initiative to talk to me first again in a misunderstanding..haha..mayb you dun wish to tell me wat i said..but watever it is..glad that we cleared it up again..thanks..take care..=)..

jiahui: heyyyy my dear gal..dunno waddya thinking these days..perhaps you dun feel like telling me..but jus confide in me if you're feeling miserable inside okies?..dun think so much..noe you're stressed up these days..take care okies?..smile loads..=)..

today lessons all not boring again..
me shirley stheng yuyuan siti kept laughing for e whole day..
wahahaha..
morning run was terrible..
dunno wats wrong w me mann..
first time morning run needa stop and rest for so many times..
mayb ate too much chocs..=x..heh..
art was okies..didn finish homework thou..heh..
eng lesson before recess was okies too..
crapping w shirley..
nola..in fact practising for oral..heh..
after recess went to lab..suang..got air con ma..lolz..=//..
math was shiok..crapping w shirley stheng yuyuan and siti..
esp shirley..funny siarh..talked DARN fast..hahaha..
cme was okies too..some pple presented e proj..
but den i c e cher a bit not suang la..
she wan make me deaf or something?
sudd spoke so loud den so soft..
diaoz...
lolz!!!..=x..heh..
math remedial cancelled!!!..winks..geeeee..
so after dismissal went to kfc w min jr and wee..
thanks jr!!..10bucks from your pocket gone again!!..sorry uh..but we did enjoy e meal..geee..so thanks uh..keke..
toopid min..a bit crazy in e mind today..hahaha..
den went back to sch to do homework..
this time really did homework..nv slack le..
at least nv talked so much crap like b4..heh..
so glad that i've been doing work for these 2 days..gee..
den went off at 4plus..
early neh..even chris said i 'so guai' go home so early today..
hahaha..but i must admit i m..
haha..anw..wats e point of staying in sch now?
no point le ma..so jus go home lor..
so left sch w min jr and wee le..
reached home and saw my niece candice!!!!!
scare me mann..they came to singapore for some days..
meee got a shock..didn noe they are back..heh..
stil so cute..grins..hahaha..
hmmm..
wil be going home early from now on..
if dere aren any stuff on after sch..
wil be going home earlier den usual with min they all..
like that more time to do homework le..
heh..sudd so guai hor..hahaha..

guo * f e l t j o y
5.21pm

yoke hwee aka yh aka yu hui: heyyyy..i noe you'll be reading this..cos you're my zhong shi du zhe ma..hahaha..anw..dun think too much le okies?..dun like so si qu huo lai de ma..i rather you say 'wan' to me when i say 'zao' to you all e time..at least it proves that you're stil in e mood to be lame..heh..anw..can always look for me if you got any msg for me to convey to her or anything to talk to me abt okies?..take care!..smile loads!..=)..

jr: hey lao di..hmmm..at least i sense some joy in you today..mayb cos you both talk le..i dunno..perhaps you wil tell me you acted it out only..but watever it is..hope you can always smile from e bottom of your heart okies?..cos i noe how miserable it is to put up a fake smile on your face..always look for me if you need someone to spit out your wei qu and xin shi to okies?..take care..smile loads!..=)..

this song darn niceeeeyyyy mann..but e north version de nicer lor..gee..chris recommend de..shirleen sent me de..niceeeyyy mann..=))))..

Tonight it's very clear
Cause we're both lying here
There's so many things I wanna say
I will always love you
I would never leave you alone

Sometimes I just forget
Say things I might regret
It breaks my heart to see you crying
I don't wanna lose you
I could never make it alone

CHORUS
I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreaming of
We'll live forever
Knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love

You keep me standing tall
You help me through it all
I'm always strong when you're beside me
I have always needed you
I could never make it alone

I am the man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero
Your've been dreaming of
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we did it all
for the glory of love

It's like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just in time I will save the day
Take you to my castle far away

I am the man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero that your dreaming of
We're gonna live for ever
Knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love

We'll live forever
Knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love
We did it all for love

hmmm..
now at yuyuan hse w yingpeng..
listening to toxic..
yuyuan said he becomes HIGH when he listens to this..
wahahahahaha..
anw..
cool..
today didn stay back in sch again..
except for e chinese enrichment..
shiok..
stil not v used..
but stil..
wil be going home early for e rest of e days..
hopefully can make it..
hahahaha..
but i noe i have e determination..
=)))))

guo * f e l t l o v e
5.44pm

yoke hwee aka yh aka yu hui: heyyy..dun think so much le la..i blif she wil apologise de..she really feels sorry abt it leh..hmmm..dun think too much le okies?..you can join us tml okies?..our pleasure..haha..anw..take care hor..drink lotsa water and rest well..smile loads..=)..

bad flu today..hmmm..went to bed early last nite..
but didn have my blanket on..so got a cold..
kept sneezing from morning til now..
shant elaborae on e events that took place days ago..
lazy me..gee..
today was a sleepy day..
thou i had really enough sleep le..
dunno y thou..haha..
today after sch went to mac w kexian..
met mel after that..den kx went back sch for training..
den yh jr wee joined us..
had lotsa tarco balls..hahaha..
went to big bookshop after that..
den yh and wee went home le..
went back to sch w jr..
sian mann..
he went home first..
den i went to mac to talk crap w shirleen..
haha..
okies..
shant talk much le..
tml got guides..
must prepare stuff le..
hmmm...

guo * i s s o d a r n ha p p y t o d a y `grins
9.13pm

Zzzz..darn heavy eyelids..
but got tuition later..
gotta endure..
yawnsss...
Zzzzz...
this morning got guides..
tot was going to b late to meet them..
cos woke up at 6 30..
but when i reached dere..
only saw nicolle..
nana they all were late..
win liao lor..hahaha lolz..
ate breakfast at kopitiam..
they ate roti prata..
me and mel ate doughnuts..
must save $$$..haha..
was sneezing all e way..lolz..
everything was okies for e day..
den they played captains ball..
me and qian fall out..
at umbrella talk cock..
toopid la those pple..
y must back out..
no determination..
toopid!!!
okies..dun talk abt it le..not as if is my business..lolz....
before we fall out got punishment for being slow..
e punishment was horrible!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gotta listen to w e n s p a c e s i sing!!!!!!
gosh..that was so 'shiok' mann!!..lolz..=x..
den went to makan with mel jr and wee..
ate tako balls at mac..keke..
wee went home first..went to big bookshop with mel jr shirleen and yh..down dere laughed laughed laughed..dunno wats wrong with me today..lolz....
went back to mac with them again..
saw shirley and her frens..
so jus sat down..diff pple talked to diff pple..lolz..
went home alone..with an empty stomach..haha..not exactly empty thou..shared tako balls with mel..haha..so enjoyable..lolz..
they are at acsb gangshow..
must be enjoying themselves..hmmm..

i dun wan to qi pian you..
i m left with no choice..
a state of loss?
i think so.
i dunno.
dunno wat to do...

guo * i s d a r n s l e e p y
9.13pm

`superstar

feeling giddy..dunno y..shrugs..
went 'dating' with mel again jus now..
ate tako balls at mac..haha..
today lessons were all okies..
slept during science lessons..
dunno if ms toh realized..
cos i seemed as if i was reading my textbk..=x..keke..
gotta go sleep now..
yawnsss..
tml going back..
dun wan c him..=x..
dun dare to c wat has become of him..lols..
Zzzz...

guo * f e e l s s i c k
5.17pm

`leave. get out

hmmm..today is a greatttttttttt dayyyyyyy..gee..
early in e morning..at 6plus?..yea..sent mrs kee e cher day msg i had gotten ready some days ago..keke..
in school..listened to shawn's speech..
was cool!..hahaha..funny mann..keke..
next..
2c1 won e campus run!!
*grins*..=)))..
thanks so muchie to limin siti shirley yingpeng shawn jiandong bingkun kianwee zirui and ms chen!!..gee..so happiessss..=)))..
chiong back to nh with kinmun yuyuan and junhong after that..
we were e earliest i must say..
to be exact..i was e first to step into e sch..keke..
rushed to class5a to find mrs kee..
zhen shi de..she praised me in front of her class..=x..gee..
went around e sch..
den went to watch e concert at e auditorium for a while..me so extra..screamed for e chers..me alone..so paiseh..lols..gee..
saw yujia shermin shuhui fuyu huijun and my dearest broooo shentong!!!..keke..didn c many pple..they all dismissed late de..lols..
first time leave so early mann..lols..
normally i m first to arrive last to leave..
today..
first to arrive..
first to leave..
lols..
dun wish to c him..so quickly siam first..lols..
but stil glad that at least i got to c my dearest da ge..stil so tall!!..so shuai!!..keke..
went to peps with chris..he led e way..i forgot how to go dere le!!..=x..cant blame la..4yrs nv go back neh!!..heh..
stepped into e sch..only one word to describe mann..
UNFAMILIAR!!..heh..
saw boon keat!!!..haha..got to noe yesterday that he oso in that sch de..keke..and yea..junyang oso..shuai!!..hahaha..lols..
me so gan dong..saw so many p2 and 3 frens..surprisingly i could stil recognise a few..heh..
saw..minglee..celeste..joanne..rachel..gehui..qianhua..hope didn leave out any..
oh my god!!!..saw terence!!!..he stil so shuai!!..keke..=x..
didn c any chers who taught me before AT ALL..lols..
so went off first..went to mac with chris and clem..
den went to lot1..scary mann..so many police..cos of e mrt accident thingy..den so sian mann!!..only shopped for like 20min??..lols..den went to jp..saw my mel!!..haha..den siti oso..blah blah blah..jus shopped around..nothing much to do anw..
den bought popcorns!!..yummies..sweet flavour de..lols..
den went home le..ALONE okies..cos of !@#$%^&*()..
lols..thats not vulgarity thou..keke..lols..
okies..
gotta sleep..
lalala..
Zzzzz..

guo * y a w n e d
11.42pm

`she'll be loved